A decade
I just realized that as of September, I will have been on Livejournal for the past ten years. I've posted at least one entry a month until recently (I write more in my paper journal now).
TEN YEARS. I started as anuenue after the 9/11 attack. I was living in a dorm room with a roommate that had a constant stream of male visitors. I was just starting college and was depressed a lot. I wasn't happy with myself and I made more than my share of bad decisions about men. I was interested in poetry and stories and exploring everything.
And now? I'm married and expecting a baby. I spend a lot of days pretty much on my own, puttering around the house and working on my computer. I make some money off of my art. I've got some really great friends, and I still occasionally email Mary Etna and Lindsay, both of whom I met that first year. I like cooking dinner every night for my husband and sometimes I feel pretty boring, but I still talk about myself too much. I still love to dance and have my times where I'm not happy with myself, but I'm overall much more stable and happier.
I guess it's also my high school 10 year reunion this year. I don't know what, if anything, is planned, and I live 5,000 miles from there so it's not like I would be attending regardless. Still, I can't help but be curious...
I'm so thankful I made it through everything without too much damage to where I am now. It seems like a dream at times, lying in bed next to a wonderful man that loves me, in a beautiful house in Hawaii, with our child growing in my belly.
I'm working to simply enjoy it, because I never know what will happen in the future. So I just try to be here, now, and make the most of it, every day.
TEN YEARS. I started as anuenue after the 9/11 attack. I was living in a dorm room with a roommate that had a constant stream of male visitors. I was just starting college and was depressed a lot. I wasn't happy with myself and I made more than my share of bad decisions about men. I was interested in poetry and stories and exploring everything.
And now? I'm married and expecting a baby. I spend a lot of days pretty much on my own, puttering around the house and working on my computer. I make some money off of my art. I've got some really great friends, and I still occasionally email Mary Etna and Lindsay, both of whom I met that first year. I like cooking dinner every night for my husband and sometimes I feel pretty boring, but I still talk about myself too much. I still love to dance and have my times where I'm not happy with myself, but I'm overall much more stable and happier.
I guess it's also my high school 10 year reunion this year. I don't know what, if anything, is planned, and I live 5,000 miles from there so it's not like I would be attending regardless. Still, I can't help but be curious...
I'm so thankful I made it through everything without too much damage to where I am now. It seems like a dream at times, lying in bed next to a wonderful man that loves me, in a beautiful house in Hawaii, with our child growing in my belly.
I'm working to simply enjoy it, because I never know what will happen in the future. So I just try to be here, now, and make the most of it, every day.