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today was good. so good. better than i could have even imagined. i had a lot of fun, even though it was so muggy out. it really was absolutely wonderful. and then i had to go and fuck it up and be a stupid fucking idiot and now i'm sad and i feel like i'm going to burst into tears any moment now and i don't even know why because everything is perfectly fine in everybody elses head except mine and i'm just a moron and oh my gosh it's so fucking hot.