the name i give you...
my only advice today would be to NOT give your child two last names. i have been living in a nightmare for the past 24 years. half of the things i am attached to think of me as legally as one name and the other half thinks of me as the name i use (which apparently is only half of my legal name). what kind of masterful disaster does this cause? a HUGE fucking inconvienence!!!
if i wanted to change it all and save myself the strife, it would cost me over 500$ and a huge fucking headache. a new SS card, a new licsence, a verification through ALL of my financial and federal documents...why? because anything to make my life more frustrating is obvious the way to go. damnit. i rant, i rave, i nearly pull out the few hairs i have left.
the recent frustration all started the other day when my investment broker sends me a letter needing verification of my SS# to my name, since of course i use one and am legally another. a withholding of MY money is taking place as each day passes until they have this information...i mean afterall, i've only had my money invested for 24 years, so of course now is a good time to tell me shit doesn't match up. then i get denied a fucking gas card because i need more verification with my bills IN my name with my new address and OF COURSE the damn lady at property management has yet to finish my housing application and legally give me a place to live (not that this has much to do with the name, but i'm sure it will cause a descrepancy eventually). all is everywhere, nothing is where it needs to be haha. i have no home, and nobody knows my name.
i hate my name, i love where it came from, but i hate the fact that i have to be someone i don't associate with just so that "big brother" can find me. no one will understand...i couldn't explain the situation if i tried....i'm too damned frustrated. i've been amanda brown since the day i could remember...why didn't my family tell me to use both names from the get go if this is what i had to look forward to???? it's saturday, i want to take a BT, relax and enjoy a day off from the countless frustrations of the week...but instead i am sitting in my room, paperwork surrounding me--and in the end...i don't even know what name to sign...
if i wanted to change it all and save myself the strife, it would cost me over 500$ and a huge fucking headache. a new SS card, a new licsence, a verification through ALL of my financial and federal documents...why? because anything to make my life more frustrating is obvious the way to go. damnit. i rant, i rave, i nearly pull out the few hairs i have left.
the recent frustration all started the other day when my investment broker sends me a letter needing verification of my SS# to my name, since of course i use one and am legally another. a withholding of MY money is taking place as each day passes until they have this information...i mean afterall, i've only had my money invested for 24 years, so of course now is a good time to tell me shit doesn't match up. then i get denied a fucking gas card because i need more verification with my bills IN my name with my new address and OF COURSE the damn lady at property management has yet to finish my housing application and legally give me a place to live (not that this has much to do with the name, but i'm sure it will cause a descrepancy eventually). all is everywhere, nothing is where it needs to be haha. i have no home, and nobody knows my name.
i hate my name, i love where it came from, but i hate the fact that i have to be someone i don't associate with just so that "big brother" can find me. no one will understand...i couldn't explain the situation if i tried....i'm too damned frustrated. i've been amanda brown since the day i could remember...why didn't my family tell me to use both names from the get go if this is what i had to look forward to???? it's saturday, i want to take a BT, relax and enjoy a day off from the countless frustrations of the week...but instead i am sitting in my room, paperwork surrounding me--and in the end...i don't even know what name to sign...