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SO. i am very very upset. My family is going on a 'vacation' to the east coast to visit my dad's family & the beach and i don't want to go for the following reasons:
1. i hate beaches. they have sand & sand gets everywhere. they have jellyfish that are itchy. east coast beaches strong undertows & dumping waves. i go into water & i get tossed around & i dont like it. and i have adverse reactions to heat because i am weak & frail
2. my extended family doesnt like me too much. they feel quite neutral toward me i guess, but they wouldn't be affected by not seeing me for a summer. & they are insane and my grandma doesnt know who i am. she thinks my sisters and i are boys. last year she asked us if we brought our cats to the beach.
3. my dad will get on my case about exercising more
4. i don't want to miss drew's play
5. i am going to europe for 2 weeks and i am in wisconsin now until the seventh and i was in portland only a few days ago. i like traveling but 4+ places, 8+ long plane rides is not my idea of a good summer.
if i had a job i wouldnt have to go but i figured nobody would hire me since i would be gone so much during the summer
& if i had a place to stay from august 2nd-12th there would be a possibility of not going but i dont think anybody would want me
but i know that i cant go. if i went i would die. i would actually hate my life and i would die. i wish i had somewhere to go. i would do anything. if anybody wants a house guest or knows someone who wants a house guest you should tell me. i dont eat a lot and i dont take up any space. i'm practically invisible.
1. i hate beaches. they have sand & sand gets everywhere. they have jellyfish that are itchy. east coast beaches strong undertows & dumping waves. i go into water & i get tossed around & i dont like it. and i have adverse reactions to heat because i am weak & frail
2. my extended family doesnt like me too much. they feel quite neutral toward me i guess, but they wouldn't be affected by not seeing me for a summer. & they are insane and my grandma doesnt know who i am. she thinks my sisters and i are boys. last year she asked us if we brought our cats to the beach.
3. my dad will get on my case about exercising more
4. i don't want to miss drew's play
5. i am going to europe for 2 weeks and i am in wisconsin now until the seventh and i was in portland only a few days ago. i like traveling but 4+ places, 8+ long plane rides is not my idea of a good summer.
if i had a job i wouldnt have to go but i figured nobody would hire me since i would be gone so much during the summer
& if i had a place to stay from august 2nd-12th there would be a possibility of not going but i dont think anybody would want me
but i know that i cant go. if i went i would die. i would actually hate my life and i would die. i wish i had somewhere to go. i would do anything. if anybody wants a house guest or knows someone who wants a house guest you should tell me. i dont eat a lot and i dont take up any space. i'm practically invisible.