A Whole New Ball Game
Lifeis so very complicated. Imagine being in such deep denail that you only realize that you are and have been a lesbian your whole, entire, 45 years of life!
Actually I just turned 46 a few days ago, so this is all still pretty new for me. Trying to date at this age is difficult at best. Add on top of everything else the newness of my sexual idenity and it is just a down right challenge.
Lots of starts and stops for me this year. I went online to look for a "Match" and had a few dates, two were not for me, one said I was not for her.....Joy went totally freaky with her anger on me....And then there was/is Peg. We met in March and it was amazing! She was magical and I fell in love for the first time in my life. It was very fast, but so so so right.
The problem? Now, as of Saturday, she wants to be best friends. She says she meant all the previous comments about how much she loves me.... she still loves me in fact. BUT< she has NEVER had a best friend before and wants to try that out :(
Of course I AM feeling rejected.........and, less than enough...........plus a little frumpy on top of everything..................
Anybody got ANY words of wisdom??????
I am truely grateful that she is talking to me and she did not just drop off the face of the earth or lead me on, but I need help understanding how this all works, I keep getting knocked down.
Bah!!!!!!!!!!!
Actually I just turned 46 a few days ago, so this is all still pretty new for me. Trying to date at this age is difficult at best. Add on top of everything else the newness of my sexual idenity and it is just a down right challenge.
Lots of starts and stops for me this year. I went online to look for a "Match" and had a few dates, two were not for me, one said I was not for her.....Joy went totally freaky with her anger on me....And then there was/is Peg. We met in March and it was amazing! She was magical and I fell in love for the first time in my life. It was very fast, but so so so right.
The problem? Now, as of Saturday, she wants to be best friends. She says she meant all the previous comments about how much she loves me.... she still loves me in fact. BUT< she has NEVER had a best friend before and wants to try that out :(
Of course I AM feeling rejected.........and, less than enough...........plus a little frumpy on top of everything..................
Anybody got ANY words of wisdom??????
I am truely grateful that she is talking to me and she did not just drop off the face of the earth or lead me on, but I need help understanding how this all works, I keep getting knocked down.
Bah!!!!!!!!!!!