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There are times that I begin to doubt myself, my life, my decisions. Most of my friends who are my age are in college, sure to be successful and happy in the future, easily employable with their nice degrees. There are times I look at what I do everyday and think "where's the point?". There are times I consider quitting everything and just moving somewhere and beginning some new crazy life.
Then there are times like tonight - when SuperHouse played an unbelievably energetic show to a tightly packed crowd at The Mohawk. Afterwards numerous strangers complimented the band and our show. The whole time I was surrounded by my greatest friends. Then I got onstage again to play some Christmas songs with aforementioned good friends. I'm reasonably drunk the whole night.
There are times like last night - when You Me & Greg performed an improv show (we've decided to still do improv but only rarely). The crowd was small but very warm, they enjoyed the show. With Doug and Greg it's so easy to just get back into the groove of things and have fun onstage. And I got to see Pgraph! Afterwards, I went to my friend's birthday party and had an awesome time playing a lot of Brain Warp.
There are times like the past two weeks - when I spent almost everyday preparing for the Am-Fi christmas show, having rehearsals at my house, hanging out with aforementioned greatest friends. Mastered an album. Mixed a couple of songs.
In the next month I will be putting in a lot of time rehearsing for a full-length play that Doug and I are in, for Frontera Fest. The name of the play is "Jack and the King". Doug plays Jack, I play the King. It will be fun. I'm going to be working full-time (which will suck), but I have to force myself to get a job and work my ass off in order to be successful at what I love doing (making music and entertaining people). Sadly, I'm going to have to cut back on some things (sleep, hanging out, the poetry slam) but I know it will be worth it.
On nights like this (good show nights) I am convinced that some greater plan is being spun in my favor. That the right path isn't the one you find, it's the one you make for yourself. That doors aren't always opened for you, but it's a lot of fun to make a me-shaped hole in the wall as I plow through it, breaking on through to the other side.
Christmas doesn't really exist in my family anymore, there's no tree at my house, no presents underneath it, no lights outside, no real sign of the holidays. Tonight was my Christmas. Surrounded by the most awesome people I know, playing music and having fun.
This is what I want to do with the rest of my life. And on those days that I doubt myself, hopefully I'll remember these words.
If you were at the show, thank you very much. If you weren't, it's okay, you had a good reason not to be.
Merry Christmas to you all.
-Phil
Then there are times like tonight - when SuperHouse played an unbelievably energetic show to a tightly packed crowd at The Mohawk. Afterwards numerous strangers complimented the band and our show. The whole time I was surrounded by my greatest friends. Then I got onstage again to play some Christmas songs with aforementioned good friends. I'm reasonably drunk the whole night.
There are times like last night - when You Me & Greg performed an improv show (we've decided to still do improv but only rarely). The crowd was small but very warm, they enjoyed the show. With Doug and Greg it's so easy to just get back into the groove of things and have fun onstage. And I got to see Pgraph! Afterwards, I went to my friend's birthday party and had an awesome time playing a lot of Brain Warp.
There are times like the past two weeks - when I spent almost everyday preparing for the Am-Fi christmas show, having rehearsals at my house, hanging out with aforementioned greatest friends. Mastered an album. Mixed a couple of songs.
In the next month I will be putting in a lot of time rehearsing for a full-length play that Doug and I are in, for Frontera Fest. The name of the play is "Jack and the King". Doug plays Jack, I play the King. It will be fun. I'm going to be working full-time (which will suck), but I have to force myself to get a job and work my ass off in order to be successful at what I love doing (making music and entertaining people). Sadly, I'm going to have to cut back on some things (sleep, hanging out, the poetry slam) but I know it will be worth it.
On nights like this (good show nights) I am convinced that some greater plan is being spun in my favor. That the right path isn't the one you find, it's the one you make for yourself. That doors aren't always opened for you, but it's a lot of fun to make a me-shaped hole in the wall as I plow through it, breaking on through to the other side.
Christmas doesn't really exist in my family anymore, there's no tree at my house, no presents underneath it, no lights outside, no real sign of the holidays. Tonight was my Christmas. Surrounded by the most awesome people I know, playing music and having fun.
This is what I want to do with the rest of my life. And on those days that I doubt myself, hopefully I'll remember these words.
If you were at the show, thank you very much. If you weren't, it's okay, you had a good reason not to be.
Merry Christmas to you all.
-Phil