Hi! I'm back.............I know its been a looooong time.
Well the last time I left off was with a guy I WAS! dating. He broke up with me some time in last week of June early week of August, I don't know, I don't remember. I was a mutual brake up because was seeing that he was acting like an asshole with me. I tried being friend with him at the time but u should know old habits die hard "wink wink" after a year and a half. We tried hanging out as friends. One night he invited me to a gathering and my emotions got the best of me along with the alcohol. I divided the room and he was hatted for a while, at first I felt bad but then all that changed after everything that was said that night. After that night we did not talk for three week until he called me saying when he was leaving to the air force some time in march. We spoke rarely after that. The last time we spoke was on Christmas and on New Years until desperation kicked in about three weeks ago when I decided to take my self off is plan. That was the last time I spoke to him to get a pass code to get my self off is plan. The thing that annoyed me was when he gave me the pass code he then became curious about me and how I was doing. I as a fool started to tell him how I was doing until my mom interrupted my conversation letting me know the AT&T guy was waiting for me. He could have called me to see how I was doing if he was so dam curious about me but NO! he waits until I call. Once I realized that I did that I said that I'm not gunna talk to him anymore. I changed my number and phone. Him and his friends don't have my new #.
One thing I could say is that the mother is still a whack job. She had the idea that I was hitting her baby, but what he does is that when he's putting cream on him self he then slaps his hand and it sounds like a slap. Another one is when we are playing I mush his head and she sees that as hitting. GOSH!!!!!!!!! This female really did a number on me, she insulted me by calling me fat and ugly. She was basically calling me a no good for nutting. She is such a two face, one minuit she could be sweet and cool and then turn in to a wart. For those who know batman she is Harvey Two face, that's what she is. She really scared me but I know God is gunna take of her in such a way that she'll never expect. When all this was happening the Ex would jump in a little and then he would sleep it off and just leave me there all hurt.
I've been going to church and I've been feeling better about my self and my family is trying to be a family again, its been 4 months sense we've been trying and so far its going ok. The one thing I'm finding VERY! hard is to move on and letting go of all the hurt that him and his mom has done to me. I know one day I will be free of this anger I just cant wait until it happens.
One thing I could say is that the mother is still a whack job. She had the idea that I was hitting her baby, but what he does is that when he's putting cream on him self he then slaps his hand and it sounds like a slap. Another one is when we are playing I mush his head and she sees that as hitting. GOSH!!!!!!!!! This female really did a number on me, she insulted me by calling me fat and ugly. She was basically calling me a no good for nutting. She is such a two face, one minuit she could be sweet and cool and then turn in to a wart. For those who know batman she is Harvey Two face, that's what she is. She really scared me but I know God is gunna take of her in such a way that she'll never expect. When all this was happening the Ex would jump in a little and then he would sleep it off and just leave me there all hurt.
I've been going to church and I've been feeling better about my self and my family is trying to be a family again, its been 4 months sense we've been trying and so far its going ok. The one thing I'm finding VERY! hard is to move on and letting go of all the hurt that him and his mom has done to me. I know one day I will be free of this anger I just cant wait until it happens.