confessions of a girl
need to lose fat, and weight..(47kg and 157.5 cm. that's not heavy for an average girl, considering i have quite a bit of muscle mass but compared to fit and more muscular guys of similar height that IS heavy) >.< but i enjoy eating (good) food too much -- the conflict. just had (half) a slice of Cedele choc cheesecake (double the sin!) today and now i feel guilty. gah.
Many women complain that this obsession with weight arises because of guys, and their emphasis on good figures / bodies, that problems of low-self-esteem (body image), dieting, weight-consciousness, and eating disorders like anorexia and bulimia are rather common amongst the female population. Upon reflection, i think that's not true. it's easy to blame our own insecurities on men and their emphasis on appearance. But i don't think they prioritise appearance as much as we think they do. Sure, looks are important. But no woman can deny that they prefer attractive-looking guys, that looks are (quite) important to them too. Even if we grant that guys DO care alot about looks, (so, do they?) why should women cater to what guys like? No its not them we want to satisfy-- it's ourselves, our self-pride, our vanity, our narcissism (to some extent). At the end of the day, what's causing this distress are our own insecurities, our need for affirmation, our need to feel that we are attractive and 'wanted'--(no its not some extreme narcissistic complex, it's merely a byproduct of evolutionary hardwiring).
To be fair, (and before 'feminists' go after me -- hey i'm not a supporter of male chauvinists, merely a proponent of Gender Equality) women are much more affected by how they think they look, than men, because while status is accorded to men with talent and calibre, status for women is often accorded to not just accomplishment, but looks and attractiveness as well. That's why so many women envy models, while much less men envy male models.
After writing all these, I should be sensible and not care about my weight / level of fat / waist etc. But the truth is, i have my insecurities too. i'm too wrapped up in them to break out of all these insecurities and wants. i'm rather vain, yes (though i don't go for pedicures / manicures / hair treatment / do any of the silly facial-wash-then-facial-toning-followed-by-facial-lotion routines that many girls or women do).
So, my solution? Eat and indulge in food! And rely on sports to burn off the calories. Good thing that I love sports much more than eating ;)
Many women complain that this obsession with weight arises because of guys, and their emphasis on good figures / bodies, that problems of low-self-esteem (body image), dieting, weight-consciousness, and eating disorders like anorexia and bulimia are rather common amongst the female population. Upon reflection, i think that's not true. it's easy to blame our own insecurities on men and their emphasis on appearance. But i don't think they prioritise appearance as much as we think they do. Sure, looks are important. But no woman can deny that they prefer attractive-looking guys, that looks are (quite) important to them too. Even if we grant that guys DO care alot about looks, (so, do they?) why should women cater to what guys like? No its not them we want to satisfy-- it's ourselves, our self-pride, our vanity, our narcissism (to some extent). At the end of the day, what's causing this distress are our own insecurities, our need for affirmation, our need to feel that we are attractive and 'wanted'--(no its not some extreme narcissistic complex, it's merely a byproduct of evolutionary hardwiring).
To be fair, (and before 'feminists' go after me -- hey i'm not a supporter of male chauvinists, merely a proponent of Gender Equality) women are much more affected by how they think they look, than men, because while status is accorded to men with talent and calibre, status for women is often accorded to not just accomplishment, but looks and attractiveness as well. That's why so many women envy models, while much less men envy male models.
After writing all these, I should be sensible and not care about my weight / level of fat / waist etc. But the truth is, i have my insecurities too. i'm too wrapped up in them to break out of all these insecurities and wants. i'm rather vain, yes (though i don't go for pedicures / manicures / hair treatment / do any of the silly facial-wash-then-facial-toning-followed-by-facial-lotion routines that many girls or women do).
So, my solution? Eat and indulge in food! And rely on sports to burn off the calories. Good thing that I love sports much more than eating ;)