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It's depressing that it doesn't matter what I think of myself, but what other ppl think of me.
I searched for 'how fat is too fat to wear a bikini?' According to the internet, anything bigger than an anorexic.
It seems like friends and coworkers share this view as well. I remember a few years back at the beach I wanted to take my top off cause I was hot and wear just my bikini top (& pants). My friend's reaction was that I shouldn't, like it was gross or something. At work we get tabloid magazines. A recent one featured best and worst celebrity beach bodies. None of the "worst" were bad. I even said about a specific one, "if she's confident enough to wear a bikini, that's great, she doesn't look bad" to which my coworkers disagreed with me and said that certain people shouldn't wear bikinis cause they don't want to see that. Which tells me that they wouldn't want to see me in a bikini, or even shorts for that matter. One of them commented about how she doesn't and shouldn't wear strapless tops. She's not a small girl, but she's smaller than me. I said that I wear tube tops. That killed that conversation.
If I'm not supposed to wear a swim suit in the water, what am I supposed to wear? Am I supposed to swim fully clothed? If I'm not supposed to wear sleeveless tops and shorts am I supposed to wear long pants and long sleeved shirts in 100+ degree weather?
When I tried to find plus sized snow pants, none were to be found anywhere but one single online store. Clothing manufactures probably assume fat people aren't going to do active things like play in the snow. Maybe fat people don't play in the snow or do other sports cause we can't find the proper attire for these activities? Ever think of that?
If I'm comfortable enough to be seen in public in something unflattering (or rather, something socially unacceptable), like a bikini top, shouldn't the only thing that matters be that I'm ok with it?
I searched for 'how fat is too fat to wear a bikini?' According to the internet, anything bigger than an anorexic.
It seems like friends and coworkers share this view as well. I remember a few years back at the beach I wanted to take my top off cause I was hot and wear just my bikini top (& pants). My friend's reaction was that I shouldn't, like it was gross or something. At work we get tabloid magazines. A recent one featured best and worst celebrity beach bodies. None of the "worst" were bad. I even said about a specific one, "if she's confident enough to wear a bikini, that's great, she doesn't look bad" to which my coworkers disagreed with me and said that certain people shouldn't wear bikinis cause they don't want to see that. Which tells me that they wouldn't want to see me in a bikini, or even shorts for that matter. One of them commented about how she doesn't and shouldn't wear strapless tops. She's not a small girl, but she's smaller than me. I said that I wear tube tops. That killed that conversation.
If I'm not supposed to wear a swim suit in the water, what am I supposed to wear? Am I supposed to swim fully clothed? If I'm not supposed to wear sleeveless tops and shorts am I supposed to wear long pants and long sleeved shirts in 100+ degree weather?
When I tried to find plus sized snow pants, none were to be found anywhere but one single online store. Clothing manufactures probably assume fat people aren't going to do active things like play in the snow. Maybe fat people don't play in the snow or do other sports cause we can't find the proper attire for these activities? Ever think of that?
If I'm comfortable enough to be seen in public in something unflattering (or rather, something socially unacceptable), like a bikini top, shouldn't the only thing that matters be that I'm ok with it?