Clark Gable (song which is quoted at the bottom of this entry)
Yeah, so Im updating fop the first time in a good solid month. I have been so amazingly busy between seminar and reherslas that i have had literaly no time or energy to update, but now that i have a free moment i thought I would because there is some random stuff that i would really like to write about (why? because im a tool).
I cant stand being mean anymore. i love to hear other people be mean, but now, whenever i do it, i feel amazingly dirty. Not the good kind of dirty that you get when your at a dance and everyone is grinding to get low and its just briliant, but the sketchy kind of dirty that makes you feel like you just turned your first trick or somthing like that. i dont know, hopfully its just a phase but i really am not liking myself right now. w/e.
Im really tired of listening to peoples bullshit, if its bulshit then i dont want to hear it, infact: no one does, so why the fuck do people feel the need to constantly shit out theeir mouths, god it drives me insane, if your going to lie at least make it about somthing believable! and it sucks because its the people that you wouldnt expect who spew their excriment at you all the time, its always the 2 lb. lax girls with little or no common sense that are CONSTANTLY FUCKING LIE! thats why i like people like tina, because she just tells it like it is, totaly truthful and doesnt give a used tampon as to what other people think of it.
In the oast few weeks i've been realizing that i have miss judged alot of people. there are number of kids who i hated in the past who i am know starting to realize are pretty damn cool, and others who i loved and now realize they're not very good people. its wierd how opinions change like that, its so unexpected and random, but its usualy for the better.
this year is acctualy shaping out to be a good year: Im on top of all my work, im not swimming nearly as much as I thought i'd have to, and i think everything wil be cool 'socialy' (god, i am a dick hole).
i really miss erin and christina, i havent talked to either of them in a really long time.
Okay, i need sleep.
"And I want life in everyword to the extent that its absurd"~ Postal Service
P.S. dont waist your time, you only have so much of it.
I cant stand being mean anymore. i love to hear other people be mean, but now, whenever i do it, i feel amazingly dirty. Not the good kind of dirty that you get when your at a dance and everyone is grinding to get low and its just briliant, but the sketchy kind of dirty that makes you feel like you just turned your first trick or somthing like that. i dont know, hopfully its just a phase but i really am not liking myself right now. w/e.
Im really tired of listening to peoples bullshit, if its bulshit then i dont want to hear it, infact: no one does, so why the fuck do people feel the need to constantly shit out theeir mouths, god it drives me insane, if your going to lie at least make it about somthing believable! and it sucks because its the people that you wouldnt expect who spew their excriment at you all the time, its always the 2 lb. lax girls with little or no common sense that are CONSTANTLY FUCKING LIE! thats why i like people like tina, because she just tells it like it is, totaly truthful and doesnt give a used tampon as to what other people think of it.
In the oast few weeks i've been realizing that i have miss judged alot of people. there are number of kids who i hated in the past who i am know starting to realize are pretty damn cool, and others who i loved and now realize they're not very good people. its wierd how opinions change like that, its so unexpected and random, but its usualy for the better.
this year is acctualy shaping out to be a good year: Im on top of all my work, im not swimming nearly as much as I thought i'd have to, and i think everything wil be cool 'socialy' (god, i am a dick hole).
i really miss erin and christina, i havent talked to either of them in a really long time.
Okay, i need sleep.
"And I want life in everyword to the extent that its absurd"~ Postal Service
P.S. dont waist your time, you only have so much of it.