thilling ah?
last night was the worst for my arm yet, heather decided to leave or whatever and so i took another musclerelaxer and then she came back and watched tv, im not so sure what happened after that but i know i reached over to hold her and i nocked over a bunch of cups to my floor. so then i look around and my pitchblack room and realize she has been gone for a while, then i guess i musta fell back asleep or something cause i laid there for while and tried to invision where she was and instantly i saw her driving down some road and then she gets a call from blaine and he asks her for a ride to work cause he has to be there in a half hour or something, then when she goes overthere he just asks her to come in while he gets ready and then i see him talking to her and heather saying all this shit and blaine saying that "He" (aka me) is cheating on you and then she starts crying and he holds her and then they kiss, at that point i jumped up and went into my bathroom i threw some water on my face trying to get these images outa my mind. eventually i left the bathroom and got something to drink and after a little bit my grandpa walked by and asked what was wrong i said im just worried about where heather is, he said something and walked back to his room or the bathroom or something and then heather called, i wanted to ask her what she had been doing and where she was and all these things were going through my head about how she needed to be thrilled and that i didnt do it for her anymore and all this other stuff but what i said was like what? what do you want? and i felt like such an asshole but i dotn even know when she left or like anything else... but since she hung up on my i decided to lay down with the phone and hope for her to call again and my grandpa was at my door looking in and i was like can i help you and he was like what was all that commotion i though you and heather were in here fighting and i was like no, she left and just called and he said your off the phone already your usually on half the night and i was like well i guess she needed more time to decide what she wanted to talk about and kinda laughed as i passed him and went into my room layed there with the phone and eventaully fell back asleep, when i woke up aand looked at my watch it said 8something and i realized i never got the trash out so i rushed to do that and i think i further injurred my arm but anyway i took a shower and then hopped on this thing to see why she didnt call back but apparently she thinks i unplugged my phone but it coulda been my grandpa or anyone for that matter but i know for sure that i didnt.