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Thanks for all your messages.
Am ok sort of. Don't really know what to do with myself. Wake up stupidly early when I don't have any thing to do. Spent lots of yesterday cleaning and tidying. And crying. People say it's ok to cry, but I wish I didn't cry this much because my eyes hurt and my nose is red and I get a headache.
I was at church this morning. Only cried a little bit during the service (which isn't that unusual for me anyway) but after the service I told them about Jon. Lucy (one of the captains) and another girl Laura sat with me and had tea and talked and prayed. I never usually go for tea or talk to people cos it's scary, but I did today cos I needed a hug after being alone all day yesterday and Friday since the news. I got several hugs, and a couple whose son had mental health problems and died -- maybe suicide, maybe accident they don't know -- they came and talked to me too.
I'm glad I have their support, but it was rather overwhelming.
Am ok sort of. Don't really know what to do with myself. Wake up stupidly early when I don't have any thing to do. Spent lots of yesterday cleaning and tidying. And crying. People say it's ok to cry, but I wish I didn't cry this much because my eyes hurt and my nose is red and I get a headache.
I was at church this morning. Only cried a little bit during the service (which isn't that unusual for me anyway) but after the service I told them about Jon. Lucy (one of the captains) and another girl Laura sat with me and had tea and talked and prayed. I never usually go for tea or talk to people cos it's scary, but I did today cos I needed a hug after being alone all day yesterday and Friday since the news. I got several hugs, and a couple whose son had mental health problems and died -- maybe suicide, maybe accident they don't know -- they came and talked to me too.
I'm glad I have their support, but it was rather overwhelming.