SHE!
she's going to fall in love again!!! i'm not sure i'm ready for that. fiting back the tears. i didn't know i cared this much really i didn't. it' snot jealousy i figured out. it's dispear...forgetting all plans. she said she wanted to do whatever she wanted and not be tied down btu i know she's gonna tie herself down now to this person. and for whatever reason it kills me. gezzzy crezzzy it kills me a alittle. my tummy is not happy about it. but she's happy happier and that is good u know. i didn't fite cuz i felt undeserving and like she needed more. more than me but not mor ethan i could give. i would have turned my world upside down for her if i kne wit was safe. but it wasn't. i know when i knew i wnated her and shortly after that i knew i shouldn't have her as well.
mena while my hearts in peaices becasue i'm in love and that takes longe rto go away than i remember. not sure if i'm tryign to help it though. i just don't want her to use someone else to help her get over someoneelse. replace that feeling with good feelings form someone else. tiny twin identical water bottles and puppies in bed, and listenign to stories of old an new. history and present. thoughts an ideas...families. i'm always sad i won't be aaprt of that family cuz i love it. missing her and not even being on her mind. i never do mean enough or to her. if i had i would have known and never hesitated. she'll find thats someone though an di will too if i haven't already. just gotta be patient. i hate my love life cycle cuz i just hurt and hurt and hurt being a secert or the other girl, or whatever i can be. i love myself though...
mena while my hearts in peaices becasue i'm in love and that takes longe rto go away than i remember. not sure if i'm tryign to help it though. i just don't want her to use someone else to help her get over someoneelse. replace that feeling with good feelings form someone else. tiny twin identical water bottles and puppies in bed, and listenign to stories of old an new. history and present. thoughts an ideas...families. i'm always sad i won't be aaprt of that family cuz i love it. missing her and not even being on her mind. i never do mean enough or to her. if i had i would have known and never hesitated. she'll find thats someone though an di will too if i haven't already. just gotta be patient. i hate my love life cycle cuz i just hurt and hurt and hurt being a secert or the other girl, or whatever i can be. i love myself though...