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Heres the thing: Love causes pain. We all know that. How utterly cliche.
I also know it clouds peoples judgment. On a number of issues. Issues that have to do with every aspect of their life, not just romance. Thats how all encompassing it is. Thats what a disease it is.
I look at all the pain in my friends, and I hurt for them. Mostly for him. I wish I could make it all better. I wish I could fight off all his demons for him and tell him he doesn't need anyone else. But he won't hear it. Then again, I wouldn't either.
Now my segue:, seriously, you don't know me well enough if you think that anything passes my sight without me deciding it has EVERYTHING to do with me.
Yes, its all different now. Im different. >insert coming of age melodrama here<
And when Rich touched my hand tonight and I saw the sparkle in eyes those feelings came back. Hes just like the others - I know that. He seems special - but so did Paul. So did Bryan. So did all the rest. Serious question: Is it worth it? All the utter pain we all go through. To think logically - No. Its not.
But then again, when do I ever think logically?
I also know it clouds peoples judgment. On a number of issues. Issues that have to do with every aspect of their life, not just romance. Thats how all encompassing it is. Thats what a disease it is.
I look at all the pain in my friends, and I hurt for them. Mostly for him. I wish I could make it all better. I wish I could fight off all his demons for him and tell him he doesn't need anyone else. But he won't hear it. Then again, I wouldn't either.
Now my segue:, seriously, you don't know me well enough if you think that anything passes my sight without me deciding it has EVERYTHING to do with me.
Yes, its all different now. Im different. >insert coming of age melodrama here<
And when Rich touched my hand tonight and I saw the sparkle in eyes those feelings came back. Hes just like the others - I know that. He seems special - but so did Paul. So did Bryan. So did all the rest. Serious question: Is it worth it? All the utter pain we all go through. To think logically - No. Its not.
But then again, when do I ever think logically?