I could really use a wish right now
To say I'm getting depressed would be a serious understatement. I don't understand. Why am I not good enough for ANYONE?? No one wants to fucking hire me. I'm qualified to do pretty much every job I've applied for and still nothing. I've been turned down so much and these last few months, that I just don't have the energy to keep looking. It doesn't help that my entire family is putting so much pressure on me to find a job, but won't listen when I tell them I've literally applied for over 150 jobs and still nothing. Why won't anyone give me a chance? On top of all that, I've got an incredible debt piling up because I can't afford to pay back my loans and I still don't have a boyfriend. I'm so tired of being alone and crying alone and feeling like crap alone. I just want the comfort of knowing someone will be there to hold me and tell me that it will get better and support me and keep me going even though all I want to do now is stay in my room and cry all day because I feel like that's the only thing I'm good at. I don't want to work at Dairy Queen for the rest of my life. I'm better than that. I'm more intelligent than that, and yet I'm stuck there everyday bored and useless. I feel like such a fucking failure all the time and it doesn't help that my dad keeps reminding me of it constantly. He always tells me my degree won't get me anywhere and tells me about Kari being pregnant and Megan being the only one that will amount to anything. Thanks, because that doesn't make me want to slit my wrists and drown in my own blood or anything. I just want someone to give me a chance.