hodge podge of a journal...
i cant wait for school to be over. oh but wait when i finish this semester i still have 2 more to go maybe even 3 BOK! and then i get to spend a crap load of money taking my GRE, then spend money for grad school applications , then if i get in and do my grad school thing, i have to pass 2 state exams, get my clinical competence certificate and do 500 hours of actual practice. hmm it seems like my profession is something that will never happen. im so overwhelmed with school right now. and i love that i am unable to focus on the now. whatever im over it... clearly :-)
in any event things are good. im happy and am constantly reminded that the good ppl in my life are good ppl. and the shitty ppl in my life are soon to be no more. not literally but ya know. since change is the name of the game with the train wreck frinds of mine, i agree that some change is needed over the next few months in my self too. becasue every thing lately is so circumstantial i have to wait to plan out my moves from my ivory tower so yeeeeah. you know how i loooove that!
living with le best friend has been a trip, and not the good kind. im so irritated with her ungerish ways of doing things. she annoys me more and more everyday. i cant put my finger on it but her fascade of being so "in love" is a big "joke". ya dig? the only positive thing about my move to this hell hole of a city, is that ive gotten it together. i had myself worried that i wasnt gonna be able to pull my head out of my ass but i did it. im on the raod again and i can honestly say im happy. i still love the herb and an occasional pill or two but i think im over it.
the rents are retarded as ever. i am over my home life. its too dysfunctional for words sometimes. not in the dead beat trailer park kinda way but more in the traditional like the men in my family are fucking stupid. my momma is the geatest and i cant express sometimes how much i love her for spporting me and helping me and putting up with my mellow drama meltdowns over th emost neurotic things...
summer is dawning upon us. im excited. i need to find a job, pack my shit, get ready for circumstantial next half of the year. i look foward to oddly enough, summer school, my birthday DUH*, the beach, and working another shit end job.
ive been so selective lately, im not sure when the bug up my ass is gonna chunk duece but whatever im over it.
till next time beotch
in any event things are good. im happy and am constantly reminded that the good ppl in my life are good ppl. and the shitty ppl in my life are soon to be no more. not literally but ya know. since change is the name of the game with the train wreck frinds of mine, i agree that some change is needed over the next few months in my self too. becasue every thing lately is so circumstantial i have to wait to plan out my moves from my ivory tower so yeeeeah. you know how i loooove that!
living with le best friend has been a trip, and not the good kind. im so irritated with her ungerish ways of doing things. she annoys me more and more everyday. i cant put my finger on it but her fascade of being so "in love" is a big "joke". ya dig? the only positive thing about my move to this hell hole of a city, is that ive gotten it together. i had myself worried that i wasnt gonna be able to pull my head out of my ass but i did it. im on the raod again and i can honestly say im happy. i still love the herb and an occasional pill or two but i think im over it.
the rents are retarded as ever. i am over my home life. its too dysfunctional for words sometimes. not in the dead beat trailer park kinda way but more in the traditional like the men in my family are fucking stupid. my momma is the geatest and i cant express sometimes how much i love her for spporting me and helping me and putting up with my mellow drama meltdowns over th emost neurotic things...
summer is dawning upon us. im excited. i need to find a job, pack my shit, get ready for circumstantial next half of the year. i look foward to oddly enough, summer school, my birthday DUH*, the beach, and working another shit end job.
ive been so selective lately, im not sure when the bug up my ass is gonna chunk duece but whatever im over it.
till next time beotch