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awake at 3.30am made me come to an uneasy conclusion. my need to move to bc in the very near future will mean i won't be here for the birth of my new niece or nephew.
my sister is due in december, another sagittarius in the family. and i hope to be away from here by then. this will be the hardest thing, but i'm moving for me. my parents did the same thing when they got married, at least this way i'm staying in the same country. mind you the distance i'm travelling is almost the same as travelling from the uk to ontario.
and i really want to be there right now, and not just to see mr blackskull. he's been looking at places to live and further down the road a business to own as well. everyday he shows me the properties he's looking at, considering, dreaming about. every single day, he's thinking about me moving there, in one little way or another and sends me links of possibilities. and i'm not in swoon mode like i usually get with something new like this, i've known him for 14 years, i'm just content. well, i'm swooning a bit but not the usual devil worship with some of my other, recent, you know, ex bfs.
and all that made me sound so dippy, naive and yeah, i'm just not explaining the situation properly. and i like that sign. if i can't define, compartmentalise, bitch about...then i'm on to something interesting.
i've known mr blackskull since my second year in uni when he came up to me in the pub and professed his affections...and we had an on again off again affair for the next 6 years (and i was with someone the whole time, but let's not dwell on that shall we.)
all of that doesn't matter now. this is the first time that both of us were single at the same time and after a few convos, we actually learned a few things about each other. it seems if you really like someone and hell, maybe tell them this, you might be pleasantly surprised. no matter what you feel the other person thinks about you, you could be damn wrong...i was damn wrong.
mr blackskull is mr blackskull, he is who he is and doesn't hide nothing. i'm the plainest of janes known to gaydom. this is how i thought i looked to him, and yes, this was incorrect, or at least how he tells it now.
i cyber stalked him every so often well before facebook ever existed. i had little place i could go to check posts and get updated from a few other people.
then along came facebook...and one day, boom, there he was. i added him and got the usual updates for a coupla years, looked at pics of him and his then bf. i think i commented a few things but never really messaged.......................okay, now i sound like a closeted teenager wanker.
then that fateful day, in the new year when mr blackskull got a new blackberry and innocently asked who wanted his new PIN...mwah hahaha...and once your blackberry is involved, you know it's serious.
my sister is due in december, another sagittarius in the family. and i hope to be away from here by then. this will be the hardest thing, but i'm moving for me. my parents did the same thing when they got married, at least this way i'm staying in the same country. mind you the distance i'm travelling is almost the same as travelling from the uk to ontario.
and i really want to be there right now, and not just to see mr blackskull. he's been looking at places to live and further down the road a business to own as well. everyday he shows me the properties he's looking at, considering, dreaming about. every single day, he's thinking about me moving there, in one little way or another and sends me links of possibilities. and i'm not in swoon mode like i usually get with something new like this, i've known him for 14 years, i'm just content. well, i'm swooning a bit but not the usual devil worship with some of my other, recent, you know, ex bfs.
and all that made me sound so dippy, naive and yeah, i'm just not explaining the situation properly. and i like that sign. if i can't define, compartmentalise, bitch about...then i'm on to something interesting.
i've known mr blackskull since my second year in uni when he came up to me in the pub and professed his affections...and we had an on again off again affair for the next 6 years (and i was with someone the whole time, but let's not dwell on that shall we.)
all of that doesn't matter now. this is the first time that both of us were single at the same time and after a few convos, we actually learned a few things about each other. it seems if you really like someone and hell, maybe tell them this, you might be pleasantly surprised. no matter what you feel the other person thinks about you, you could be damn wrong...i was damn wrong.
mr blackskull is mr blackskull, he is who he is and doesn't hide nothing. i'm the plainest of janes known to gaydom. this is how i thought i looked to him, and yes, this was incorrect, or at least how he tells it now.
i cyber stalked him every so often well before facebook ever existed. i had little place i could go to check posts and get updated from a few other people.
then along came facebook...and one day, boom, there he was. i added him and got the usual updates for a coupla years, looked at pics of him and his then bf. i think i commented a few things but never really messaged.......................okay, now i sound like a closeted teenager wanker.
then that fateful day, in the new year when mr blackskull got a new blackberry and innocently asked who wanted his new PIN...mwah hahaha...and once your blackberry is involved, you know it's serious.