disserte
i've realized i don't write as much now. do i need a muse? do i need inspiration? or do i just need something to bitch about? who knows, but it hit me today that i'm seriously lacking in anything new for epiphanies and realizations. perhaps i feel stable, or perhaps something else keeps me from writing. i guess some things might be hard to get over, as in having some tart throw your work in your face telling you that it's all bullshit and lies used in manipulation. the person i'd write for now wouldn't do that, i know, so i'm not sure if that's my hesitation. maybe it's that type of situation of "i like doing this" and then all the sudden they decide they don't like doing it. i think my favorites are the girls that talk about how much they love to give head. yeah, we all know that isn't true....is that some girly fucking line to draw people in or what? seriously. people notice you know, if a girl tells you that...chances are that means she enjoys it...but not with YOU.
sorry that was a random thought. anyway, i'm staring at an email with that fucking "add emoticon icons to your emails!" banner and it's annoying the piss out of me. i think everyone and their dick here at work has that crap installed.
my head hurts still, i think it's withdrawal a bit, but it's helping the other prob i had. and the new stomach pills...oh lovely, they work. i think i was in a circular stress rotation.... i was stressed because of the "thing" which made me sick to my stomach from stress, which in turn if i'm sick to my stomach doesn't make me feel very sexy...and then in turn stressed me out more and back to the "thing" again. it just revolved and caused problems. well, now that one is out of the way, maybe i can think clearly for a while.
sorry that was a random thought. anyway, i'm staring at an email with that fucking "add emoticon icons to your emails!" banner and it's annoying the piss out of me. i think everyone and their dick here at work has that crap installed.
my head hurts still, i think it's withdrawal a bit, but it's helping the other prob i had. and the new stomach pills...oh lovely, they work. i think i was in a circular stress rotation.... i was stressed because of the "thing" which made me sick to my stomach from stress, which in turn if i'm sick to my stomach doesn't make me feel very sexy...and then in turn stressed me out more and back to the "thing" again. it just revolved and caused problems. well, now that one is out of the way, maybe i can think clearly for a while.