can't believe summer is over!
Wow...I just can't believe it's almost over. I mean, ya I wanted this day to come only b/c I was sooo bored out of my mind most of the time. But now that it's sunk in...it's sad. Soon I'm going to be heading to classes and studying and trying to have a life at the same time. I mean, it feels like yesterday I was finishing my last final and going out to celebrate.
But I head back Friday to check into the hotel. Then it's pre-recruitment stuff until Sunday night when I meet my group of girls that I will be a Pi Chi to. It's going to be really weird not being in the chapter room this year. I mean, it is my senior year and I feel like I should be there...but I know I would only cry at every party b/c it will be my friends talking about how they have found a new home away from home with the girls, new best friends, even bridesmaids for their weddings. It's just a lot to take in. It's my last year to do all this stuff. The stuff I've taken for granted that I've whinned about...but it's the last time I'll ever do it, but I wont be doing it. I'll be with the girls going thru it. Helping them decided where they belong so come 3 years from now, they can realize just how special senior year is with the friends you've made 3 years ago.
Ok, so senior year. I'm really speechless. It's my last year of college. The years have just flown by. I want to think b/c I've had so much fun and made so many great memories...and forgotten the bad ones, b/c we all know they do exsist. I'm going to vow to take so many pictures to remember the time with my friends before we all graduate and split up to all parts of the country. Even though we all claim we are going to Atlanta, I doubt we will all be there in the end. I mean, it depends on a lot of things. Where we each are in our lives. Some will have boyfriends, some wont. Some might even be engaged by that point and they will want to be with their significant other, unless they can work being apart.
I'm not looking to far into the future though. I'll let it take me where I need to go. For now, i'm going to live it up by meeting new people, keeping old friends close, and loving life to the fullest. I really do feel like I've just started living my life. I feel like I was being held back for so many years and now finally I can be myself and not have any worries. I mean, I do have the relapse into the past and it brings me down...but hopefully as time passes those relapses will come further and further apart until they just stop. And I know it will be like that one day. Hopefully sooner then later. haha.
I really am loving life though. I have great friends I've met at school that have stayed friends since freshman year, I have become friends with people that I once was friends with then stupid things came between us and we stopped talking for a couple years, I have a wonderful boyfriend that I really do love and he puts up with all my crap and still loves me, my family has gotten a lot stronger over the past year and a half (since my grandfather passed away), school is even going well - I'm enjoying my classes and learning a lot along the way. I just hope that I find a great internship for next summer that could bloom into a great job (and I'm hoping in Atl...)
But summer really is over. The road trips to differnt parts of the southeast (athens, auburn, nashville, flordia), the fun nights going to the bars, the friends, the cruise (sooo much fun, i'd love to do it with a group of friends one day), the car accident (not my fault), the hurricanes, the drama (there always is...), moving out of my apartment and getting ready for the new one, the drunk calls recieved and dialed, the movies seen, the jokes told, then inside jokes created....
I just hope this year holds soo many adventures for me to find. My roommate is graduating in Dec, so I know I have to at least make it worth her while. Plus, being it is my last year...I gotta do some fun things I would have never done before...haha.
Wow...still can't believe I'm leaving for school on Friday...less than 3 days away....
But I head back Friday to check into the hotel. Then it's pre-recruitment stuff until Sunday night when I meet my group of girls that I will be a Pi Chi to. It's going to be really weird not being in the chapter room this year. I mean, it is my senior year and I feel like I should be there...but I know I would only cry at every party b/c it will be my friends talking about how they have found a new home away from home with the girls, new best friends, even bridesmaids for their weddings. It's just a lot to take in. It's my last year to do all this stuff. The stuff I've taken for granted that I've whinned about...but it's the last time I'll ever do it, but I wont be doing it. I'll be with the girls going thru it. Helping them decided where they belong so come 3 years from now, they can realize just how special senior year is with the friends you've made 3 years ago.
Ok, so senior year. I'm really speechless. It's my last year of college. The years have just flown by. I want to think b/c I've had so much fun and made so many great memories...and forgotten the bad ones, b/c we all know they do exsist. I'm going to vow to take so many pictures to remember the time with my friends before we all graduate and split up to all parts of the country. Even though we all claim we are going to Atlanta, I doubt we will all be there in the end. I mean, it depends on a lot of things. Where we each are in our lives. Some will have boyfriends, some wont. Some might even be engaged by that point and they will want to be with their significant other, unless they can work being apart.
I'm not looking to far into the future though. I'll let it take me where I need to go. For now, i'm going to live it up by meeting new people, keeping old friends close, and loving life to the fullest. I really do feel like I've just started living my life. I feel like I was being held back for so many years and now finally I can be myself and not have any worries. I mean, I do have the relapse into the past and it brings me down...but hopefully as time passes those relapses will come further and further apart until they just stop. And I know it will be like that one day. Hopefully sooner then later. haha.
I really am loving life though. I have great friends I've met at school that have stayed friends since freshman year, I have become friends with people that I once was friends with then stupid things came between us and we stopped talking for a couple years, I have a wonderful boyfriend that I really do love and he puts up with all my crap and still loves me, my family has gotten a lot stronger over the past year and a half (since my grandfather passed away), school is even going well - I'm enjoying my classes and learning a lot along the way. I just hope that I find a great internship for next summer that could bloom into a great job (and I'm hoping in Atl...)
But summer really is over. The road trips to differnt parts of the southeast (athens, auburn, nashville, flordia), the fun nights going to the bars, the friends, the cruise (sooo much fun, i'd love to do it with a group of friends one day), the car accident (not my fault), the hurricanes, the drama (there always is...), moving out of my apartment and getting ready for the new one, the drunk calls recieved and dialed, the movies seen, the jokes told, then inside jokes created....
I just hope this year holds soo many adventures for me to find. My roommate is graduating in Dec, so I know I have to at least make it worth her while. Plus, being it is my last year...I gotta do some fun things I would have never done before...haha.
Wow...still can't believe I'm leaving for school on Friday...less than 3 days away....