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i turn twenty in 6 days and 23 hrs.
i don't know how i feel about that.
i've realized that nothing in my life has been easy. today i had to call up people and ask for money for crew for this athlete phone-a-thon. all these other teams had more than 10 players and coaches and so much money. us, we had a few rowers, no real coach, no money. we cared when we called, other people could careless. it was so fucking frsutrating knowing how easy they had it. how they can just PLAY and PRACTICE their sport with out having a hundred other concerns. me--i'm thinking about my stroke and about the meetings i need to make and the people i need to call.
other than that, i'm letting go. for real. i'm trying.
i don't know how i feel about that.
i've realized that nothing in my life has been easy. today i had to call up people and ask for money for crew for this athlete phone-a-thon. all these other teams had more than 10 players and coaches and so much money. us, we had a few rowers, no real coach, no money. we cared when we called, other people could careless. it was so fucking frsutrating knowing how easy they had it. how they can just PLAY and PRACTICE their sport with out having a hundred other concerns. me--i'm thinking about my stroke and about the meetings i need to make and the people i need to call.
other than that, i'm letting go. for real. i'm trying.