a simple song of hope
Well, I have to say I have never been so bored and felt so empty for a whole week like this. Every day I don't realize it until after school because my friends distract me from it at school.. I feel so bored with everything. And then I sit there at home and get in a bad mood. And then I get extremely fucking pissed off and lay in bed listening to sad music. I think the next 2 months are going to be the slowest of my life.. because all I want is summer. I can't concentrate in school at all. I didn't even realize that I've been in a bad mood for like 3 days straight .. it just doesn't show to anyone or even to myself until I get home and think about how bored I am with everything. Then again I never show if I'm in a bad mood at school .. it always comes out when I get home and I'm alone. I really want summer so fucking bad. I don't know why I'm being so moody and bored. I don't think it's healthy to be this bored .. I mean it's not like I have absolutely NOTHING to do .. I'm just sick of everything. I guess I'm in one of those "waiting" stages where I don't know what I'm waiting for. For most of this year (meaning 05) I haven't felt like I had to wait for anything or find something to look forward to.. I've just been having a good time & I love everything & everyone and even though I was having a good time I was still able to concentrate and stuff. And I can't even think of what changed and made me so bored and unhappy and distracted this week. PMS? I think it might be just like a side effect of finishing spreak break and coming back to school.. I don't even know.