hm
so im not quite sure what going through my head at the moment.
i think the interaction, or maybe the lack of interaction is getting to me.
i guess i am a girl after all, or maybe the girl i use to be is trying to claw herself back to the surface.
i dont like feeling anything. I dont like emotions. Confusion is turning into pain in the space where my heart once resided.
im in love with a song, and thats when it hit me im not dealing how i should. im severing ties after halloween. I think im going to have too. damn. i enjoyed the friendship, but its going to harm me if i stay.
The Ocean-The Bravery
"I climbed up a mountain, and looked off the edge
And all of the lies that I never have led
Is one where I stayed with you, across the sea
I wonder do you still think of me
I carry your image always in my head
Folded and yellowed and torn at the edge
And I've look upon it for so many years
Slowly I'm loosing your face
[chorus:]
Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away
Sixs and sevens we live on jet planes
And so many faces I don't know the names
So many friends now and none of them mine
Forgotten as soon as we meet
All of these moments are lost in time
Your caught on my head like a thorn on a vine
To forever torment me that I wonder why
Do I wish I've never known you at all
[chorus x2]
Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away
The sun and the moon
An ocean of air
So many voices
But nothing is there
The ghost of you asking me why
Why did I leave
[chorus]
Oh the ocean rows us away away away
And I loose your hand through the waves"
the funny thin is im pretty ok, until i start thinking about it. but thats one of my faults. i think all the time. every second of every hour of every day. its not fun being me.
i think the interaction, or maybe the lack of interaction is getting to me.
i guess i am a girl after all, or maybe the girl i use to be is trying to claw herself back to the surface.
i dont like feeling anything. I dont like emotions. Confusion is turning into pain in the space where my heart once resided.
im in love with a song, and thats when it hit me im not dealing how i should. im severing ties after halloween. I think im going to have too. damn. i enjoyed the friendship, but its going to harm me if i stay.
The Ocean-The Bravery
"I climbed up a mountain, and looked off the edge
And all of the lies that I never have led
Is one where I stayed with you, across the sea
I wonder do you still think of me
I carry your image always in my head
Folded and yellowed and torn at the edge
And I've look upon it for so many years
Slowly I'm loosing your face
[chorus:]
Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away
Sixs and sevens we live on jet planes
And so many faces I don't know the names
So many friends now and none of them mine
Forgotten as soon as we meet
All of these moments are lost in time
Your caught on my head like a thorn on a vine
To forever torment me that I wonder why
Do I wish I've never known you at all
[chorus x2]
Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away
The sun and the moon
An ocean of air
So many voices
But nothing is there
The ghost of you asking me why
Why did I leave
[chorus]
Oh the ocean rows us away away away
And I loose your hand through the waves"
the funny thin is im pretty ok, until i start thinking about it. but thats one of my faults. i think all the time. every second of every hour of every day. its not fun being me.