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[flirt_w_suicide]

I'm tired of having self control. i want to be a kid, the teenager i never was. i want to let loose and not worry about tomorrow even if its only for one night. I want to regress and live life with a smile. I guess thats why kids fuck up early on in life, so that they don't feel like me at my age. I make myself sound old but I'm not. I just always felt ancient. But now i want to dance in the rain if i feel like it, i want to kiss the stars, and not care. I want to make decisions and only worry about the glorious happiness that comes immediately, not the horrid consequences after. i just want to be a kid, an irresponsible kid, for once in my life.

but i never will be, no matter how much i want to let go, i cant. no matter how young i am, i can never act my age. My mind is too responsible to close its senses and let my body take over.

Is it too much to ask to just be free... for one night? :/