Final Reslolution
i give up. no more men for me. no more little boys. i dont know what i did wrong. Yeah i may be fat, but i know bigger bitchier girl who get guys. some even get good guys. I dont know what i did to be alone. but im finally ok with it. i have stopped trying. i have grown, so now i have stepped on a different maturity level.
Ariel: i can kinda say ur the first guy i really fell for. Dont know why. I noticed all. i adored your hand, and how you where good at everyhting i wasnt.
AJ: I liked you immidiatly after i saw you. but w.e. u saw me only as a friend. i adored the way u played guitar, and how honest you where. i adore your friendship now.
Jason: you lied to me. Yet i still manage to love your sence of humor, and singing seven elven on the phone. Getting a hug, or a poke and not being able to take the smile off my face
Adrian: you hung out with me for a little while, me thinking maybe i could in the end be worth something more than a friend.....i guess i was wrong. thanx for ditching my friendship. i liked who you where, the laughs, the randomness, the hugs where u actually made me feel like a girl.......but w.e
my whole life is a whatever.
between all the pains going on at home, all the people who come to me knowing i can be their shoulder to cry on, im still the one, who hasnt had love.
the only person who loves, me and doesnt annoy me, who understands....well.. kinda of who i am...is jess i love you dood.
im done. im done trying for somethng that i just wont get, i actually went kinda girly. you know what that is? you know how much i had to try to be more of a girl. to bat my eyes, laugh, play blonde sometimes, and wear shit that made me feel like a girl. all for another heartache after another. aint is great?
just know that from now on..................im heartless, cause it got torn out.
jess is the one that keeps me going. the only one who listens. the onyl one who knows exactly what to do to piss me off, or to make me laugh
Ariel: i can kinda say ur the first guy i really fell for. Dont know why. I noticed all. i adored your hand, and how you where good at everyhting i wasnt.
AJ: I liked you immidiatly after i saw you. but w.e. u saw me only as a friend. i adored the way u played guitar, and how honest you where. i adore your friendship now.
Jason: you lied to me. Yet i still manage to love your sence of humor, and singing seven elven on the phone. Getting a hug, or a poke and not being able to take the smile off my face
Adrian: you hung out with me for a little while, me thinking maybe i could in the end be worth something more than a friend.....i guess i was wrong. thanx for ditching my friendship. i liked who you where, the laughs, the randomness, the hugs where u actually made me feel like a girl.......but w.e
my whole life is a whatever.
between all the pains going on at home, all the people who come to me knowing i can be their shoulder to cry on, im still the one, who hasnt had love.
the only person who loves, me and doesnt annoy me, who understands....well.. kinda of who i am...is jess i love you dood.
im done. im done trying for somethng that i just wont get, i actually went kinda girly. you know what that is? you know how much i had to try to be more of a girl. to bat my eyes, laugh, play blonde sometimes, and wear shit that made me feel like a girl. all for another heartache after another. aint is great?
just know that from now on..................im heartless, cause it got torn out.
jess is the one that keeps me going. the only one who listens. the onyl one who knows exactly what to do to piss me off, or to make me laugh