I'm not ready
Janessa is leaving. Man will I miss her. I am next. But I am beginning to not feel so afraid. Mother and I aren't talking, kind of like what happened last time but not as intense in that way, and I think its helping me to want to leave. The whole thing with mother is quite strange. I really don't know how to react. I hate hurting her like this but I'm leaving Tuesday and she's not acting like I'm going anywhere at all. All I want is attention from her for a chance but Liz is the only one who is getting it. I'm sorry it makes me sad. I'm sorry that I take too long to pick out a bra and you both have to make fun of me and make me cry in kohls. Good parenting, right? I still need a couple more things but I guess its up to me now because having stuff for school is spoiled. Sometimes I just really suck at life and should learn that when dealing with mother that its always best for her not to know how I feel about things.
Tonight Ashley took my virginity of tubing of course. It was so much fun. I cannot even express it. Too bad the fatties put a hole in the tube. haha. I had a great time tonight. I came in 3rd playing poker. After the boys left it was way more fun. I love girl talk. Thank you Ashley for inviting me.
I must go to bed or I will be cranky at work tomorrow. I hate working 12-6 esp at the Quad. Everyone should go see a movie.
Tonight Ashley took my virginity of tubing of course. It was so much fun. I cannot even express it. Too bad the fatties put a hole in the tube. haha. I had a great time tonight. I came in 3rd playing poker. After the boys left it was way more fun. I love girl talk. Thank you Ashley for inviting me.
I must go to bed or I will be cranky at work tomorrow. I hate working 12-6 esp at the Quad. Everyone should go see a movie.