Well now, can I touch it...
I just looked at my last post, which was well over a year ago. I feel like a totally different entity now. I suppose that I am. I've seen some amazing things and experienced some truly horrifying and shitty things. I realize life goes on. I suppose that is the biggest shock, to anyone who has been absent from life for 6 months. You spend your time remembering things the way they were only to find that nothing is ever the same is it once was. It's kind of like a kick in the teeth, though, that maybe putting it mildly. I haven't posted here in a while, and quite honestly, I shouldn't be doing it now. I should be writing my paper that is due Friday, but for some reason college, papers, grades, all seem so trivial. I can't make myself do anything anymore, excluding waking up and dragging my feet through the muck of my so called "life". Thankfully I have friends, who aren't always around, but they make things a million times better when they are. They are my family, especially now. My brother is in Boston, and my parents are slipping into senility. They boggle my mind. I was talking to my mother the other day, and it was like reading a book of quotes. She would just say abstract and meaningless shit like, "People with loose lips sink ships." What the fuck is the relevance of that to say, my ongoing unhappiness with college and my entire situation? Shit. I'm also single again. I'd rather not go through the pain of recounting all of the details leading up to my current lack of relations. Just suffice to say, it was no good. To all of my friends: Thanks for hanging around. I realize I'm a totally different person now, but eventually I'll get over all this shit and be me again... hopefully. I'll catch you on the flip-side.