they lie
who ever said that college was all about experimentation and finding what it is that you like to do LIED. there is no such thing as time, if there is, it goes by way too fast. i mean i've already finished my first semester of college and i still don't have a plan for what i am doing with myself. it is a bunch of bull shit that you don't have to know what you want to do (or at least a rough idea) going into college- i mean there just isn't enough time to figure it out while you're in school if you still want to graduate in four years.
after manipulating my schedule three times, i am not changing it any more. now i have calc I, econ 101, english 125, and anthro 101. yes, i probably will be dead by the end of this semester considering that i am taking calc and econ and the fact that i have 8:30 class(every day). yes, it most definitely will be hell, but i don't feel like i have been working my ass off just to get the mediochre grades that i am probably getting. in retrospect it does seem like a big transition from high school to college but it didn't from day-to-day...weird, i know.
the entire car ride home from school yeterday my dad tried to help me figure out what i want to do and i'm not sure how much progress i made. god, this is hard(uggg). it's hard not being really good at one thing or to like one thing a whole lot(if i am, i wish that one thing would come find me- soon, preferably- because i have to graduate in four years). my dad says he could see me in something science-related and not so much in the business field...funny because i kind of see the opposite.
i have these recurring/ridiculous thoughts of applying to the b-school(and getting in). i just look at all of these other people that are going to apply and how they seem like ten times more qualified/capable/prepared than i am right now.
maybe i just need one more semester of experimenting?
after manipulating my schedule three times, i am not changing it any more. now i have calc I, econ 101, english 125, and anthro 101. yes, i probably will be dead by the end of this semester considering that i am taking calc and econ and the fact that i have 8:30 class(every day). yes, it most definitely will be hell, but i don't feel like i have been working my ass off just to get the mediochre grades that i am probably getting. in retrospect it does seem like a big transition from high school to college but it didn't from day-to-day...weird, i know.
the entire car ride home from school yeterday my dad tried to help me figure out what i want to do and i'm not sure how much progress i made. god, this is hard(uggg). it's hard not being really good at one thing or to like one thing a whole lot(if i am, i wish that one thing would come find me- soon, preferably- because i have to graduate in four years). my dad says he could see me in something science-related and not so much in the business field...funny because i kind of see the opposite.
i have these recurring/ridiculous thoughts of applying to the b-school(and getting in). i just look at all of these other people that are going to apply and how they seem like ten times more qualified/capable/prepared than i am right now.
maybe i just need one more semester of experimenting?