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So I did that thing where my head works too fast, and have been focusing on the future, and how to get there...sooo much lately. And I love it. There are so many good things coming up soon. And the last month has been fabulous, so its easy to get distracted from the now. And this surgery snuck up on me, because I haven't thought about it till today. Maybe I did that on purpose, or maybe I just cram other thoughts and experiences into my brain...either way, it's tomorrow, its actually happening..and it almost feels real.
So far, I think that I don't mind. And I'm not dreading it...
Every time I'm in the IWK I have to remind myself of why I'm really there. I don't feel different, I don't act different, and plan to keep it this way. Considering I feel pretty un-sick, the surgery thing is weird. It gets me that much closer to the finish line, and its all moving along very fast.
In the back of my mind I hear the What If's, and they are hard to ignore today. But I know I will be ok..and I know this won't be so hard.
I have written an deleted a big list of everyone that keeps my world turning, and when I realized how long it was, and how much I had to say to you all I decided to save it for a better occasion.
I can't say it enough. I'm very lucky to have my friends. I love you all...you make my day over and over again, even the smallest actions make me smile. So thank you.... I love you. I'm so sorry I make you guys worry about me, but believe me when I say you make this ok, and therefore I know I am..and will continue to kick this thing in the ass.
Over and out and hopefully home in around a week.
~ Jenny
So far, I think that I don't mind. And I'm not dreading it...
Every time I'm in the IWK I have to remind myself of why I'm really there. I don't feel different, I don't act different, and plan to keep it this way. Considering I feel pretty un-sick, the surgery thing is weird. It gets me that much closer to the finish line, and its all moving along very fast.
In the back of my mind I hear the What If's, and they are hard to ignore today. But I know I will be ok..and I know this won't be so hard.
I have written an deleted a big list of everyone that keeps my world turning, and when I realized how long it was, and how much I had to say to you all I decided to save it for a better occasion.
I can't say it enough. I'm very lucky to have my friends. I love you all...you make my day over and over again, even the smallest actions make me smile. So thank you.... I love you. I'm so sorry I make you guys worry about me, but believe me when I say you make this ok, and therefore I know I am..and will continue to kick this thing in the ass.
Over and out and hopefully home in around a week.
~ Jenny