...cuz even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do...
last night, alex and i talked for 5 hours and 20 minutes. i don't know how we managed to talk that long, but we did...and i loved it. he's such a sweetheart. it just sucks that he's 12 and a half hours away :-(
today: i woke up and helped my mom get ready for the family party. i played some football with my brother too. papa looked awful today. it breaks my heart to see him like this. he was doing so well after the radiation, and this is definitely the worst i've ever seen him. get better, pops. kim, nicole, jen, shawn, joey and i replayed the video of our 'ode to grandma'. on fathers day, we wrote her a song. it's still hilarious watching it. jeremy, spencer and chad came over to see me before they leave for state again. i hardly saw them at all this summer. they never fail to have interesting discussions though. jeremy talked about his dog and how he thinks hawks and vultures are gonna attack it because it looks like a bunny. i dunno. they're weirdos. i can't wait to see chad's movie though. HA. kim and i went out on the boat later and sang to "i don't want to miss a thing" cuz it was on the radio. it was great. johnny levandowski stopped by after calling my house phone 12 times. nicole and i had chocolate martinis. thanks mom. we sang the pissonya and shitonya song.. (if you're not a koterba and you're not drunk, you wouldn't understand). even grandma gets into it. "i hate to tell you this, but that's not russian...and i'm guessing it doesn't mean 'i love you' either" oh god. old people are funny. we beat each other up in the street, said our 'pissonya's and 'shitonya's and the cousins left. i got in a fist fight with my brother... since then, i've voluntarily been in my room because of course, it's my fault even though my brother is twice the size of me.
i love sara nicole veltri. seriously, she's one of the only things that gets me through every day. i don't know what i'd do if she wasn't here to gossip and bitch with me. thanks for calling me even though i wasn't dying to talk... i really needed it. you're the best friend anyone could ask for.
last weekend of summer... nooooooooooo.