Dolphin's Cry
holy shit.
how i feel like i want to unload. but at the same time i don't. how i want to shed this person that i feel like people view me as. how i want everyone to know the real me. but that requires vulnerability. something i'm not ready to become.
i'm having a hard time believing that people are my friends. i'm having a hard time accepting that i'm not a failure...that i just need to try harder. i'm having a hard time not dwelling on my mistakes. just accepting and learning from them. self growth is the hardest. yeah i second that notion.
i feel that our society has gone fucking twisted sideways. all of a sudden people are having a hard time justifying what is right and what is wrong. and slowly, we as a general population are destroying ourselves from the inside. With not having a separation of church and state...religious battles have become political battles, against all of history and against everything that we said we weren't ever going to do. now there are commercials saying don't censor God from our society. When most of the people in that commercial were political representations. i.e. Regan and Kennedy. I'm not one to disrespect people's views on religion. But, if something is stated in a historical document, that we as people, are taught in school, i expect it to be accuate. If something like the Bill of Rights and The Decleration of Independence are held so high in our society, why are we not following it? And if we aren't going to obey these things, then why the hell do you make me learn about it? Why hold it on such a high pedestal that is fake and full of lies? And as much as I can wish that the VT massacare didn't it happen, it did. But as far as our media goes, there is no way in hell that it needs to be publicized this much. All it's doing is making things worse. Here in my city, a community college was closed for two days due to a bomb threat. What the hell? I sympathize and I can't imagine what the families of the victims are going through. Hopefully I will never understand. And it is tragic. But all these support groups that are forming are making it ridiculous. Sure, people want to show their sympathy but do they really care? Do they know the people that were killed? Did they go to that school? Are you going to send the families money to help pay for the funeral, or better yet are you going to the memorial service? As a country we only band together in tragedy. Otherwise, its everyone for themselves. Why is that? Can anyone answer that? Because, how I see it, is that we dwell on the negative. As a country, we can never band together and be happy. And is that because we have nothing to be happy about? We are fighting a war we don't believe in. We have a president who isn't able to be a leader. We have mass killings like VT and Columbine. I can sit here all i want and criticize things. But things aren't going to change unless people change. and we all know how difficult it is for people to change.
ok, i'm done.
how i feel like i want to unload. but at the same time i don't. how i want to shed this person that i feel like people view me as. how i want everyone to know the real me. but that requires vulnerability. something i'm not ready to become.
i'm having a hard time believing that people are my friends. i'm having a hard time accepting that i'm not a failure...that i just need to try harder. i'm having a hard time not dwelling on my mistakes. just accepting and learning from them. self growth is the hardest. yeah i second that notion.
i feel that our society has gone fucking twisted sideways. all of a sudden people are having a hard time justifying what is right and what is wrong. and slowly, we as a general population are destroying ourselves from the inside. With not having a separation of church and state...religious battles have become political battles, against all of history and against everything that we said we weren't ever going to do. now there are commercials saying don't censor God from our society. When most of the people in that commercial were political representations. i.e. Regan and Kennedy. I'm not one to disrespect people's views on religion. But, if something is stated in a historical document, that we as people, are taught in school, i expect it to be accuate. If something like the Bill of Rights and The Decleration of Independence are held so high in our society, why are we not following it? And if we aren't going to obey these things, then why the hell do you make me learn about it? Why hold it on such a high pedestal that is fake and full of lies? And as much as I can wish that the VT massacare didn't it happen, it did. But as far as our media goes, there is no way in hell that it needs to be publicized this much. All it's doing is making things worse. Here in my city, a community college was closed for two days due to a bomb threat. What the hell? I sympathize and I can't imagine what the families of the victims are going through. Hopefully I will never understand. And it is tragic. But all these support groups that are forming are making it ridiculous. Sure, people want to show their sympathy but do they really care? Do they know the people that were killed? Did they go to that school? Are you going to send the families money to help pay for the funeral, or better yet are you going to the memorial service? As a country we only band together in tragedy. Otherwise, its everyone for themselves. Why is that? Can anyone answer that? Because, how I see it, is that we dwell on the negative. As a country, we can never band together and be happy. And is that because we have nothing to be happy about? We are fighting a war we don't believe in. We have a president who isn't able to be a leader. We have mass killings like VT and Columbine. I can sit here all i want and criticize things. But things aren't going to change unless people change. and we all know how difficult it is for people to change.
ok, i'm done.