delusional
so I'm sick.
like really sick. and it's not the normal cold-like symptoms, it's like the been having strange symptoms for going on a month such as extreme dizziness, body aches, head aches, nose bleeds, my ears bleed?, paleness, fatigue, scary, cancer potential type of sickness. I've taken the past two days off work and I'm scheduled for the doctor tomorrow. I've never been this scared for my health before, my body is like shutting down on me. It's overwhelming.
I had a dream last night that I had a brain tumor and the cost to keep me employed under the Wells family was too much of a risk if I were going to be dying soon, so they very politely arranged for me to be a nanny for another nice family who would be living at my family's farm. So I was all upset and hurt and sick but decided to be professional about it and went to work for the other family. I woke up crying because i just wanted to be with the wells again! I told Coni about it this morning and she just hugged me for like 20 minutes and assured me I would always be welcome to work for them and i certainly have no brain tumors.
I've been reading the Da Vinci Code(finally) it's intense, and obviously cryptic, but i've been subconsciously applying codes to everything in my daily activities because i've completely immersed myself in the text. it's getting a bit extreme.
fun fact: adam rapp, anthony rapp's(RENT's mark) straight brother, is the creative consultant for my favorite television show, the L word, which happens to be all about this group of homosexual women. In Anthony Rapp's biography 'Without you" which I just read in Hawaii, he writes of his brother and how he wrote screenplays and produces stuff and such and also about how he dealt with Anthony's sexual orientation. I wonder if Adam Rapp's brother's homosexuality had any influence on his involvement in this show. side note:trans genders are creepy. speaking of the l word, I just bought the complete 1-2&3 seasons off ebay for nothing from hong kong(full english) they havent all been released in the states yet so im pretty excited about it, i go them today and it's helped with the bedridden boredom of sickness. so you should all be jealous that you dont have the third season like me! well, i dont think anyone besides me and candace watches the l word, but whatever. im excited.
now drumroll please.........
I have planned a visit with a University of Alaska Anchorage admissions representative next week to discuss my plans for enrolling for this upcoming fall semester. I actually consider myself responsibly ready to attend school seriously. So I'll be a full time nanny and a part time college student.
and yes, this means i could be staying here longer
and yes, this means I am no longer sure if IADT is where i will be attending in Tampa
and yes, I have no fucking clue what i want to do with my life, but i'm so happy, driven, and clear headed its disgusting
I have this friend, she works at the grocery store and her name is stephani, she rings me up every tuesday when i go do the family's shopping and we have this whole conversational update everytime. "how are things in the nanny world, ans?" (i update) "how are things in the engagement world?" (she just got engaged shortly after i met her, and she updates) We've been having thes weekly installment rituals since about the third week I lived here so we finally exchanged numbers and have decided to actually talk outside the local fred meyer. So go home and tell coni about it and the next day she tells me that brent went to the store and was so impressed with his cashier's nice smile and costumer service that he offered her a job to come work for his chiropractic office as the new receptionist, low and behold it was stephani!! she couldnt believe that she was offered a job by her fave grocery shopping nanny's boss! So now she is going to work for the wells too and if everything works out she might be coming on the annual staff trip next year with us( I think it might be Israel GASP!) i just love it when aweosme stuff happens.
My cousin gave birth 2 days after Jomich did, baby fever, man. baby fever.
little John Quinn Vaughn came home dressed in his frist clothes, an elephant outfit I gave him at emily's shower. I feel so special!
i miss laura, CLAP YOUR HANDS! IM DYING!
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like really sick. and it's not the normal cold-like symptoms, it's like the been having strange symptoms for going on a month such as extreme dizziness, body aches, head aches, nose bleeds, my ears bleed?, paleness, fatigue, scary, cancer potential type of sickness. I've taken the past two days off work and I'm scheduled for the doctor tomorrow. I've never been this scared for my health before, my body is like shutting down on me. It's overwhelming.
I had a dream last night that I had a brain tumor and the cost to keep me employed under the Wells family was too much of a risk if I were going to be dying soon, so they very politely arranged for me to be a nanny for another nice family who would be living at my family's farm. So I was all upset and hurt and sick but decided to be professional about it and went to work for the other family. I woke up crying because i just wanted to be with the wells again! I told Coni about it this morning and she just hugged me for like 20 minutes and assured me I would always be welcome to work for them and i certainly have no brain tumors.
I've been reading the Da Vinci Code(finally) it's intense, and obviously cryptic, but i've been subconsciously applying codes to everything in my daily activities because i've completely immersed myself in the text. it's getting a bit extreme.
fun fact: adam rapp, anthony rapp's(RENT's mark) straight brother, is the creative consultant for my favorite television show, the L word, which happens to be all about this group of homosexual women. In Anthony Rapp's biography 'Without you" which I just read in Hawaii, he writes of his brother and how he wrote screenplays and produces stuff and such and also about how he dealt with Anthony's sexual orientation. I wonder if Adam Rapp's brother's homosexuality had any influence on his involvement in this show. side note:trans genders are creepy. speaking of the l word, I just bought the complete 1-2&3 seasons off ebay for nothing from hong kong(full english) they havent all been released in the states yet so im pretty excited about it, i go them today and it's helped with the bedridden boredom of sickness. so you should all be jealous that you dont have the third season like me! well, i dont think anyone besides me and candace watches the l word, but whatever. im excited.
now drumroll please.........
I have planned a visit with a University of Alaska Anchorage admissions representative next week to discuss my plans for enrolling for this upcoming fall semester. I actually consider myself responsibly ready to attend school seriously. So I'll be a full time nanny and a part time college student.
and yes, this means i could be staying here longer
and yes, this means I am no longer sure if IADT is where i will be attending in Tampa
and yes, I have no fucking clue what i want to do with my life, but i'm so happy, driven, and clear headed its disgusting
I have this friend, she works at the grocery store and her name is stephani, she rings me up every tuesday when i go do the family's shopping and we have this whole conversational update everytime. "how are things in the nanny world, ans?" (i update) "how are things in the engagement world?" (she just got engaged shortly after i met her, and she updates) We've been having thes weekly installment rituals since about the third week I lived here so we finally exchanged numbers and have decided to actually talk outside the local fred meyer. So go home and tell coni about it and the next day she tells me that brent went to the store and was so impressed with his cashier's nice smile and costumer service that he offered her a job to come work for his chiropractic office as the new receptionist, low and behold it was stephani!! she couldnt believe that she was offered a job by her fave grocery shopping nanny's boss! So now she is going to work for the wells too and if everything works out she might be coming on the annual staff trip next year with us( I think it might be Israel GASP!) i just love it when aweosme stuff happens.
My cousin gave birth 2 days after Jomich did, baby fever, man. baby fever.
little John Quinn Vaughn came home dressed in his frist clothes, an elephant outfit I gave him at emily's shower. I feel so special!
i miss laura, CLAP YOUR HANDS! IM DYING!
Nomes: