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some days he fails.
and he spends all night on his computer looking up jackets for his dirt bike.
but at the last moment he'll pull through, pay attention, and not make a big deal out of picking up me some vegetables from the store along with my tampons.
but I faked him out and ate my detailed list. yes. ate. grabbed the list he janked out of my back pocket and shove it in my mouth and chew. he admits defeat.
I know I should let him get me everything I need from the store, but I just have this feeling that it's better if I go to town myself to do grocery shopping. that'll probably be in a couple of weeks though. in the mean time..he'll be buying me dinner. but more likely..we'll be eating at his parents' house.
part of me wants to go home right now. wants to drop off his car keys and walk back to my little apartment and not answer the door or phone calls for the rest of the summer. make my money and go home. home. back to living my marginal life. scraping by. school. 8-5 job every day. billing. boring. simple. lonely.
better than feeling alone in your lover's bed, I tell you.
and he spends all night on his computer looking up jackets for his dirt bike.
but at the last moment he'll pull through, pay attention, and not make a big deal out of picking up me some vegetables from the store along with my tampons.
but I faked him out and ate my detailed list. yes. ate. grabbed the list he janked out of my back pocket and shove it in my mouth and chew. he admits defeat.
I know I should let him get me everything I need from the store, but I just have this feeling that it's better if I go to town myself to do grocery shopping. that'll probably be in a couple of weeks though. in the mean time..he'll be buying me dinner. but more likely..we'll be eating at his parents' house.
part of me wants to go home right now. wants to drop off his car keys and walk back to my little apartment and not answer the door or phone calls for the rest of the summer. make my money and go home. home. back to living my marginal life. scraping by. school. 8-5 job every day. billing. boring. simple. lonely.
better than feeling alone in your lover's bed, I tell you.