So I'm learning....
That I can only get myself out of my problems, my slumps of emotion, my depression, my issues. I don't need someone else to fill a void, I just would like someone/some people to share my life with. I am shallow and it's ok to have superficial standards, but don't rule out the rest cause I could miss out on something good. I need to enjoy what life has to offer and take it as my own. Life is difficult, but it's supposed to be and only the best survive it. There isn't just one guy out there for me, and the one I would like may not be out there at all, I can only hope I will or have met him and if something comes of it, it will. If not, c'est la vie. I need to continue my education. I am a fortunate individual and I need to realize that, cause it could be a lot worse. Love the friends I have, love the family I have, but most of all...LOVE MYSELF!!! I think that's what I'm lacking...
People say I'm self-loathing, I tease about my own race, I poke fun at my sexuality, I make myself the butt of my jokes. I believe it's all a joke, but I could be possibly hurting my own soul. Gettin' all sappy up in here.
Gotta jet, people need tables here at Vivace and I'm just taking one up with my computer when I could be writing this entry at home.
K, gonna go enjoy a sunny day in Portland.
Muah!
People say I'm self-loathing, I tease about my own race, I poke fun at my sexuality, I make myself the butt of my jokes. I believe it's all a joke, but I could be possibly hurting my own soul. Gettin' all sappy up in here.
Gotta jet, people need tables here at Vivace and I'm just taking one up with my computer when I could be writing this entry at home.
K, gonna go enjoy a sunny day in Portland.
Muah!