Weird feelings about 'special' friends
So, I just found out yesterday that Dan is going to be in town for 10 days next week. I'm not sure how to feel about that. Sure, we're dear friends and it will be good to see him after almost a year, but I can't shake the odd feeling that it will be ackward being that I was pretty much in love with this man for the last 3 years, and this time when he comes around, I won't be.
That, and Adam is coming in June for a week. It's been an odd emotional relationship. For one, we're on opposite sides of the country yet we're closer to each other than I am to all the guys I've dated since summer of last year (yeah, all 3 haha). He just got accepted to UNC-Chapel Hill for Law as well as JAG. So he's still gonna be an eastcoaster for at least 3 more years. We've flirted with the idea of me possibly moving to NC when I finish my undergraduate and do my post-grad there, and I've been strangely okay with the idea. Probably because I really don't have to take it seriously until next year.
I'm just confused of the direction I'm taking now. I love California, but I am looking for a change. I've talked to Issa about moving to NY and do my post-grad at NYU. I feel that although I've built my life and have my friends and family here, I need a fresh start. A fresh start for what? I don't know. I've got an itch to travel again. Damn.
That, and Adam is coming in June for a week. It's been an odd emotional relationship. For one, we're on opposite sides of the country yet we're closer to each other than I am to all the guys I've dated since summer of last year (yeah, all 3 haha). He just got accepted to UNC-Chapel Hill for Law as well as JAG. So he's still gonna be an eastcoaster for at least 3 more years. We've flirted with the idea of me possibly moving to NC when I finish my undergraduate and do my post-grad there, and I've been strangely okay with the idea. Probably because I really don't have to take it seriously until next year.
I'm just confused of the direction I'm taking now. I love California, but I am looking for a change. I've talked to Issa about moving to NY and do my post-grad at NYU. I feel that although I've built my life and have my friends and family here, I need a fresh start. A fresh start for what? I don't know. I've got an itch to travel again. Damn.