LJ Idol Week 0: Introduction
Sometimes I think Idol knows me better than I know myself. It always seems to pop up in a different phase of my life when I really need to tell my stories to the world.
The first time I played, about five years ago, I was single with zero prospects, just chilling with my black lab, Fenway. One of the last entries I wrote for Idol that season (before I bye’d out because I was too worried about being voted out so I wanted to pre-emptively strike) was about the people who were messaging me on Match.com, which I had just joined.
The second time I played Idol was at the end of 2016 and into 2017. When I signed up, my husband and I were six months married. During Idol, I got pregnant, lost the baby and then tried and failed to get pregnant again. My intersection partner was a woman who was pregnant and had her baby, a couple weeks before mine would have been due.
The third time I played Idol was on Dreamwidth, about a year ago. This time, during Idol, I gave birth to a baby girl who was conceived on the second try of IVF.
Today, almost another year later, that baby girl is 10 months old, and yesterday we bought a house. Tomorrow we move in. The me of five years ago, who was scared to be voted out and was scared she’d be alone forever, would be amazed by how much has changed in five years.
The only thing that hasn’t changed is I’m still playing Idol and I’m still ready to share myself with you all.
So here we go again.
The first time I played, about five years ago, I was single with zero prospects, just chilling with my black lab, Fenway. One of the last entries I wrote for Idol that season (before I bye’d out because I was too worried about being voted out so I wanted to pre-emptively strike) was about the people who were messaging me on Match.com, which I had just joined.
The second time I played Idol was at the end of 2016 and into 2017. When I signed up, my husband and I were six months married. During Idol, I got pregnant, lost the baby and then tried and failed to get pregnant again. My intersection partner was a woman who was pregnant and had her baby, a couple weeks before mine would have been due.
The third time I played Idol was on Dreamwidth, about a year ago. This time, during Idol, I gave birth to a baby girl who was conceived on the second try of IVF.
Today, almost another year later, that baby girl is 10 months old, and yesterday we bought a house. Tomorrow we move in. The me of five years ago, who was scared to be voted out and was scared she’d be alone forever, would be amazed by how much has changed in five years.
The only thing that hasn’t changed is I’m still playing Idol and I’m still ready to share myself with you all.
So here we go again.