The story of my singleness
Oh wow. It has been ages since I have used this thing. A lot has happened. Both of my grandparents in Florida passed away, and like a month later, my bf of 4 years dumped me. It is a long story, but I will try to sum it up.We broke up a week ago and it's definitely taking its toll on me. We were just talking about the future and how we have only ever dated each other seriously. The marriage topic came up and I said that I don't want to ever wonder what else is out there. I didn't really mean anything about it at the time, but Matt took it really seriously and like 20 minutes later we were broken up. He said he wanted to see other people. I know the idea is good, but it has been 4 years (well it would have been 4 years on Thursday). It is really hard to let go. Immediately after breaking up, he started dating some 15 year old, and that didn't really fly with me. So we started having some issues, but he said he wanted to be done with the girl ("the baby" as I like to call her) and be back with me. He told me it was a HUGE mistake and I believed him. So he came over a few times and then it was getting better. Then he came over 2 nights ago and broke my heart again. He told me he changed his mind (again) and he likes being single better than he likes being with me. So that kind of crushed me (again), even though I know I should just take advantage of the whole situation. I need to date other people, and there is probably someone better for me out there. The only thing is, until now, he has never been even a little bad to me. He treated me like a princess for 4 years. He wasn't the typical high school boy that only wanted to date me for some action, and he was content with my decisions of not having sex. So this is a little hard to grasp. I'm really not doing so well with the whole thing, to be completely honest with you. But that is the summary. He doesn't want to be tied down again, and I am not ready to date anyone else yet. So, for now, I am a single lady just seeing how it goes. It has to get better. That's the only way it can go from here. But, I am a happy optimistic person. I can't let it bring me down for long. I'm a little bitter, but it gets better everyday (except when he does more dumb stuff).
More stuff that I told Joe: sorry if it is repetetive
Matt and I are pretty darn broken up now. there were talks of getting back together, but those seemed to have passed. Now he is just pissing me off, and I cry about it when he isnt there. Im not gonna give him the satisfaction of knowing how much I miss him. That is even worse since this seems to be the summer of the relationship. I swear every other summer I was one of the only ones with a serious bf. Now, all of my friends that I was hoping to hang out in all of my freetime, are gone. They are off being mushy and lovey with other mushy lovey people. Even my extremely cynical and evil best friend velda has fallen head over heels. I don't get it. Even Scott has found his summer lovin. I must admit I am a teensy bit lonely, but it has only been a little over a week. I need to stop worrying about spending my life alone. It isnt that big of deal. Matt is being a dick and i did tell him to suck it, complete with the motions. He didnt seem to care. He cant make up his mind and now he told me that he is happier being single than he was when he was with me. I told him Im sorry he had 4 years of torture dating an ugly bitch like me. Who knows, maybe he was unhappy. Even tho, I highly doubt that. So the goal now is to move on. Find something else to occupy me the remainder of the summer. A job, a hobby, a manwhore. Doesnt really matter to me, as long as it is something to take my mind off of the douchebag.Douchebag did want to get back together, but now he is SO HAPPY without me. I'm keeping that damn $80 share hammock. Hahaha I will do bad things with other boys in it, just to spite him. Ok ok so I am getting a little outta hand. I tend to do that. Yesterday, I gave matt a baby book and told him to give it to the baby. (The 15 year old he was dating). That was a little extreme and mean and I even called to apologize. I do miss him, but I guess the best thing is to let him see what life is like without me. The answer: HORRIBLE. Life is horrible without me. I know it is. Haha ok so that is what I wish. I wish he thought that life was horrible without me, just cuz it seems to be a little horrible without him. My sister broke up with her bf too, so at least we can offer eachother some pity. The sad part is, she might get back together with hers. He is begging so much and being oh so pitiful. So I am back to being the only Meyer girl (except the 12 year old) without a love life. And even the 12 year old has the little neighbor boy who runs around without his shirt. Maybe if Im lucky I can snatch him away from her. Too bad he is 12. 12 is close to 15 tho......
More stuff that I told Joe: sorry if it is repetetive
Matt and I are pretty darn broken up now. there were talks of getting back together, but those seemed to have passed. Now he is just pissing me off, and I cry about it when he isnt there. Im not gonna give him the satisfaction of knowing how much I miss him. That is even worse since this seems to be the summer of the relationship. I swear every other summer I was one of the only ones with a serious bf. Now, all of my friends that I was hoping to hang out in all of my freetime, are gone. They are off being mushy and lovey with other mushy lovey people. Even my extremely cynical and evil best friend velda has fallen head over heels. I don't get it. Even Scott has found his summer lovin. I must admit I am a teensy bit lonely, but it has only been a little over a week. I need to stop worrying about spending my life alone. It isnt that big of deal. Matt is being a dick and i did tell him to suck it, complete with the motions. He didnt seem to care. He cant make up his mind and now he told me that he is happier being single than he was when he was with me. I told him Im sorry he had 4 years of torture dating an ugly bitch like me. Who knows, maybe he was unhappy. Even tho, I highly doubt that. So the goal now is to move on. Find something else to occupy me the remainder of the summer. A job, a hobby, a manwhore. Doesnt really matter to me, as long as it is something to take my mind off of the douchebag.Douchebag did want to get back together, but now he is SO HAPPY without me. I'm keeping that damn $80 share hammock. Hahaha I will do bad things with other boys in it, just to spite him. Ok ok so I am getting a little outta hand. I tend to do that. Yesterday, I gave matt a baby book and told him to give it to the baby. (The 15 year old he was dating). That was a little extreme and mean and I even called to apologize. I do miss him, but I guess the best thing is to let him see what life is like without me. The answer: HORRIBLE. Life is horrible without me. I know it is. Haha ok so that is what I wish. I wish he thought that life was horrible without me, just cuz it seems to be a little horrible without him. My sister broke up with her bf too, so at least we can offer eachother some pity. The sad part is, she might get back together with hers. He is begging so much and being oh so pitiful. So I am back to being the only Meyer girl (except the 12 year old) without a love life. And even the 12 year old has the little neighbor boy who runs around without his shirt. Maybe if Im lucky I can snatch him away from her. Too bad he is 12. 12 is close to 15 tho......