Today SUCKED balls!!!!!!!
Today SUCKED. First I finally get back to Boston from MI at about 12:30am because my plain was delayed. I arrive home at about 1:30am and I decide to sleep because I had to wake up at 7:30am to watch Pierce. Well at about 3:00am I was awaken by my phone and was not happy about it, I didn't even answer it. I went back to sleep and got up in the morning with Pierce, we did our usual things like eat, get dressed, play, ect. Well around noon I put Pierce down for a nap and called the person from 3:00am back to continue the conversation we had while I was waiting for my plain in Washington D.C. but it was cut short because of take off. So when I called her all I got was b*tched at and it made me think about me, and what I'm doing here on this earth and I realized I'm nothing, and I can't make anyone happy not even myself, and I'm the kind of person that says "how can you make someone else happy if your not happy with who you are, and well, I can except that but it still feels really f#cking bad. On the other hand I had a great weekend in MI with Beth and I'm sorry I didn't have more time to see anyone else. But next time I'll have plenty of time so again I'm sorry. Anyways I don't regret anything I've done, but I would like to say I'm sorry to whom ever I may have affended or maybe hurt. It was not my intentions. I was very confused and still am about who I am and why I'm here, I'm just trying to find myself and some kind of PERPUSE to me. So I know your going to read this maybe not this week but you'll see it sometime, and when you do I want you to know that this is my public apology to you, "I'M SORRY, please don't hate me". I know you will hate me now but I hope you will get over it. If you know me you know I'll do anything in my power to please everyone around me, and I can't stand someone hating me. Well I'm done now.
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