eyes
all my life, i have believed eyes to be the most beautiful part of the human body.
eyes can be read no matter what the instance. a state of happyness, sad, deceit, anything. the most amazing feature is the color. i have seen all sorts of colored eyes. my true favorite is silver. as weird as it sounds, i have seen natural silver eyes - and they completely stopped me in my tracks. colored eyes are amazing. i've always seen black or brown as plain or simple. hazel, usually determines what mood the person is in, not what they are wearing. green eyes are right next to silver in the amazing factor. blue are spectacular.. especially when they are glaring brightly.
i have hazel eyes; normally they are glaring blue - signifying a happy state of mind. lately they've been dull, somewhat green - in my mindset, determining a not so great mood.
the past two years i have stared into brown eyes. the first thing i thought was, like i stated, simple or plain. however, i will have to say these are the most amazing brown eyes i've ever seen. i've seen all sorts of emotions from them, and in the end, all i can say is wow - they are not like any other set of eyes i've come across. normally they are extremeley glossy, and i've never seen brown eyes "shine" or "glare" like these.
my eyes are dim because i am unable to look into those other eyes and find happyness, because of their unhappyness. not being able to be close to the eyes makes me uneasy and sad. i enjoy looking into them and finding myself; but i am unable to do so anymore, once more, because of their unhappyness.
i love katie. i know i badmouthed her sometimes, which feels like it was initially responsible for her being unhappy; but i talked good about her a lot too. i can only guess she never heard any of that part. i don't really have any excuse for badmouthing; only that i felt irritated sometimes, and needed to rant. an unfortunate event for myself.
when i was in jail, i learned not to take anything for granted.. which has been a valuable lesson. a very difficult process, i went through, to learn it.
unfortunately, i've never been in love before. maybe i felt like i was before, but it was quite obvious i was not (jennifer, anyone?). i couldn't process how to take or not take advantage of it. i feel like a pushover, because i have made a lot of mistakes. in the end, i feel like i took love for granted. another very difficult process i have endured, just to learn a lesson.
i am sad; i am not happy with my current situation. seeing her makes me happy; not being able to hold or show any affection makes me sad. i need to move out so i am not troubled every day by this; but she doesn't want me to leave, because she still loves me as well. i don't really want to leave, but i cannot look at her every day and not feel troubled. we felt mutual about splitting and taking a break. but breaks = time; and time gives the chance for someone else to take her away - and that breaks my heart even more.
quite an odd situation. maybe i can find more resolve later.
eyes can be read no matter what the instance. a state of happyness, sad, deceit, anything. the most amazing feature is the color. i have seen all sorts of colored eyes. my true favorite is silver. as weird as it sounds, i have seen natural silver eyes - and they completely stopped me in my tracks. colored eyes are amazing. i've always seen black or brown as plain or simple. hazel, usually determines what mood the person is in, not what they are wearing. green eyes are right next to silver in the amazing factor. blue are spectacular.. especially when they are glaring brightly.
i have hazel eyes; normally they are glaring blue - signifying a happy state of mind. lately they've been dull, somewhat green - in my mindset, determining a not so great mood.
the past two years i have stared into brown eyes. the first thing i thought was, like i stated, simple or plain. however, i will have to say these are the most amazing brown eyes i've ever seen. i've seen all sorts of emotions from them, and in the end, all i can say is wow - they are not like any other set of eyes i've come across. normally they are extremeley glossy, and i've never seen brown eyes "shine" or "glare" like these.
my eyes are dim because i am unable to look into those other eyes and find happyness, because of their unhappyness. not being able to be close to the eyes makes me uneasy and sad. i enjoy looking into them and finding myself; but i am unable to do so anymore, once more, because of their unhappyness.
i love katie. i know i badmouthed her sometimes, which feels like it was initially responsible for her being unhappy; but i talked good about her a lot too. i can only guess she never heard any of that part. i don't really have any excuse for badmouthing; only that i felt irritated sometimes, and needed to rant. an unfortunate event for myself.
when i was in jail, i learned not to take anything for granted.. which has been a valuable lesson. a very difficult process, i went through, to learn it.
unfortunately, i've never been in love before. maybe i felt like i was before, but it was quite obvious i was not (jennifer, anyone?). i couldn't process how to take or not take advantage of it. i feel like a pushover, because i have made a lot of mistakes. in the end, i feel like i took love for granted. another very difficult process i have endured, just to learn a lesson.
i am sad; i am not happy with my current situation. seeing her makes me happy; not being able to hold or show any affection makes me sad. i need to move out so i am not troubled every day by this; but she doesn't want me to leave, because she still loves me as well. i don't really want to leave, but i cannot look at her every day and not feel troubled. we felt mutual about splitting and taking a break. but breaks = time; and time gives the chance for someone else to take her away - and that breaks my heart even more.
quite an odd situation. maybe i can find more resolve later.