Dec 18, 2005 16:00
Why now? Fudge. Sometimes it really sucks to be me.
No no no I couldn't stop at the one realization, I have to surpass that and go on to what? Christ, I really don't want it to be true. But it probably is because I've been thinking about it for the past 4 hours and it is still bothering me. It's not fair. But then I've always known or whatever, which is bunch of bs because it took me 16 years to figure it out. WTF I don't want to know anymore. I just want to stop knowing. Damn it, I want to be ignornat so bad right now. Why? Why does everything have to be so effing difficult? Life is ridiculous.
And she's asking me what's wrong and I haven't the slightest idea what to say.
I'm fine.