Past and Dreams
Last night I had problems with sleeping, for some reason my mind kept racing back to the past, more to the point, I kept thinking of my friends from school, Peter Martin, Ricky Shelton, Paul Shipply and Peter Von Anrep. I was a bit of a jerk the last time I met any of them, since I've made no attempt to contact them nor them me, which is ok, the problem is I do not understand why I was thinking about them but I did sort of realise that Peter V was most likely the best friend I had back then and that I always liked Paul more than most others did, he got picked on alot back then.
This strange behavior soaked into my dreams, I dreamt I was goingto Peter V's house and on route I passed Paul and waved hello. At Peter's house, we talked and I asked him if he misses any of his friends (it seems that he also doesn't talk to any of them anymore' and he replied that he doesn't, he had fun in the past with them and for that he is greatful but life is about growing and moving, it is impossible to get to the next stage in life by attachments to a rock in the past... time and we move, the rock stays where it is.
After this, the dream went really strange, I went home and on the way home I saw some ducklings waddling along and one of them had a HUGE GREAT BIG foot, like an adult ducks foot, they ended up following me across the road then when I got to the other side, they ran back across to the side we just cross from and jumped into a small pond.
On the other side of the road, I kept passing by some sort of geese or ducks, they could been either but they were BIG, one of them started following me and attacked me, it bit into my T-shirt I was wearing (which turned out to be my Digital Devil Saga T-Shirt) and ripped off the sleeve with some uber sharp teeth and kept trying to bite me and claw at me. In the end, after struggling with this duck/goose/monster thing, I threw it off the bridge into the canel and went home.
I do not really know what to make of this all, I have my ideas but that is that.
There is one more 'past regret' type thing, I think I did not really act too good with Nicola, specially that I keep forgetting her name, not very good thing to do with an Ex, is it? It is almost as if we never dated, must not meant much.
I seem to own alot of paper and pencils etc for someone who doesn't do anything with them.
This strange behavior soaked into my dreams, I dreamt I was goingto Peter V's house and on route I passed Paul and waved hello. At Peter's house, we talked and I asked him if he misses any of his friends (it seems that he also doesn't talk to any of them anymore' and he replied that he doesn't, he had fun in the past with them and for that he is greatful but life is about growing and moving, it is impossible to get to the next stage in life by attachments to a rock in the past... time and we move, the rock stays where it is.
After this, the dream went really strange, I went home and on the way home I saw some ducklings waddling along and one of them had a HUGE GREAT BIG foot, like an adult ducks foot, they ended up following me across the road then when I got to the other side, they ran back across to the side we just cross from and jumped into a small pond.
On the other side of the road, I kept passing by some sort of geese or ducks, they could been either but they were BIG, one of them started following me and attacked me, it bit into my T-shirt I was wearing (which turned out to be my Digital Devil Saga T-Shirt) and ripped off the sleeve with some uber sharp teeth and kept trying to bite me and claw at me. In the end, after struggling with this duck/goose/monster thing, I threw it off the bridge into the canel and went home.
I do not really know what to make of this all, I have my ideas but that is that.
There is one more 'past regret' type thing, I think I did not really act too good with Nicola, specially that I keep forgetting her name, not very good thing to do with an Ex, is it? It is almost as if we never dated, must not meant much.
I seem to own alot of paper and pencils etc for someone who doesn't do anything with them.