help me!!
i desperately need saving. from here.
my monday was going well. my roommie's nice and a 4th year at ucla. and her boyfrirend's in sf, so she's out a lot. my two hour english class got cut down to an hour (prob only bc it was the first day), my bio professsor is aweseome - he's british!!! and right when i was feeling unattractive and alone - i ran into stanley. who i HEART truly, madly, deeply. he's from singapore, cuuuuuuuute, going to be a second year and makes me feel loved. too bad he doesn't go here. ah well. he's also my neighbor. but yes, he called my name bc i didn't see him at first. and we chatted! he asked me how classes were, how i was doing...oh, i want to keep this boy here. yeah, and then 3 minutes after we left, i got a smirk from a boy. which kinda made me feel better bc i was like 'huh, i was feeling really unattractive and ugly' but that lasted like 30 seconds. afterwards, i realized he was kinda creepy and all around ew-y.
and my internet still does not work and the computer ppl basically said 'um, we have bugs. go use the computing center' GREEEEEEEEAT.
then a little hang w/ arthur and fan...in a bank...yes, i know. i'm bored here.
i've met two girls who i like - michelle and mollie. michelle and i...well, we've kinda bonded over the fact that IT'S ALL NERDY GUYS HERE. THE STEREOTYPICAL ASIAN GEEKS/NERDS/EECS (ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING AND COMPUTER SCIENCE) MAJORS. yeeeeeeeeah. it's quite scary. michell and i went to dinner w/ 6 other guys...HORRIBLE experience. ok, not so bad...but really, they're NOT MY CROWD. except for stanley....who i heart like no other. and mark's ok...kinda - he's def. nerdy and geeky looking. but in comparison, he's better than the a lot of the others...
yeah, bascially dinner made me realize - DEAR GOD, HELP ME.
and i don't mean to be mean but it's....horrible. there's so much awkwardness - really, social skills...are a little lacking. i can't even understand some of them. yeah...i don't know. this one guy keeps talking about his gpa...and frankly, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN. never mind the fact that he randomly told michelle that 'oh, his sister has an eating disorder'...oh, um...who tells these things to strangers???
yeah, last night - i freaked out. briefly talked to suana and confused the hell out of her. ahaha. sorry. and then i called daniel. and we talked for a while. and yayness...he kept me from going crazy.
i mean, i know lots of ppl here...they're just living in their own apartments and i can't keep going there. eh, we'll see how things go.
but it's a very...strange...world i'm living in.
i'm having a blast, yoU?
my monday was going well. my roommie's nice and a 4th year at ucla. and her boyfrirend's in sf, so she's out a lot. my two hour english class got cut down to an hour (prob only bc it was the first day), my bio professsor is aweseome - he's british!!! and right when i was feeling unattractive and alone - i ran into stanley. who i HEART truly, madly, deeply. he's from singapore, cuuuuuuuute, going to be a second year and makes me feel loved. too bad he doesn't go here. ah well. he's also my neighbor. but yes, he called my name bc i didn't see him at first. and we chatted! he asked me how classes were, how i was doing...oh, i want to keep this boy here. yeah, and then 3 minutes after we left, i got a smirk from a boy. which kinda made me feel better bc i was like 'huh, i was feeling really unattractive and ugly' but that lasted like 30 seconds. afterwards, i realized he was kinda creepy and all around ew-y.
and my internet still does not work and the computer ppl basically said 'um, we have bugs. go use the computing center' GREEEEEEEEAT.
then a little hang w/ arthur and fan...in a bank...yes, i know. i'm bored here.
i've met two girls who i like - michelle and mollie. michelle and i...well, we've kinda bonded over the fact that IT'S ALL NERDY GUYS HERE. THE STEREOTYPICAL ASIAN GEEKS/NERDS/EECS (ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING AND COMPUTER SCIENCE) MAJORS. yeeeeeeeeah. it's quite scary. michell and i went to dinner w/ 6 other guys...HORRIBLE experience. ok, not so bad...but really, they're NOT MY CROWD. except for stanley....who i heart like no other. and mark's ok...kinda - he's def. nerdy and geeky looking. but in comparison, he's better than the a lot of the others...
yeah, bascially dinner made me realize - DEAR GOD, HELP ME.
and i don't mean to be mean but it's....horrible. there's so much awkwardness - really, social skills...are a little lacking. i can't even understand some of them. yeah...i don't know. this one guy keeps talking about his gpa...and frankly, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN. never mind the fact that he randomly told michelle that 'oh, his sister has an eating disorder'...oh, um...who tells these things to strangers???
yeah, last night - i freaked out. briefly talked to suana and confused the hell out of her. ahaha. sorry. and then i called daniel. and we talked for a while. and yayness...he kept me from going crazy.
i mean, i know lots of ppl here...they're just living in their own apartments and i can't keep going there. eh, we'll see how things go.
but it's a very...strange...world i'm living in.
i'm having a blast, yoU?