Giving me away is not goodbye.
Life sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks. That is all.
I feel like I have to keep all these parts roped off in their perspective places and no one ever just gets to see /me/. I'm hiding so much its getting hard to keep track of who knows what and have I already said that? I've been trying so hard to play nice with everyone I feel like I keep repeating; "If I'm being honest..." over and over but I'm not being honest at all. I have all these feelings and thoughts but no one to tell.
I've been wandering my house alone at night since Monday because nearly everyone but me is moved over to the new house. Just me and the dogs and other creatures of the night. Its so quiet, and no matter how loud I blast whatever music I like the silence is deafening. Its not like I miss them, my family, I miss the distraction more than anything. I think too much over here. I cry to much when I'm by myself. Its some kind of sick cycle I can't stop because secretly I like it too much.
Why do I feel like I'm self-destructing when nothing has changed? T-minus ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two....
ETA:
Did you forget? That I was even alive? Did you forget? Everything you ever had? Did you forget? Did you forget about me? Did you regret ever standing by my side? Did you forget what we were feeling inside? No one left to forget about us. But a time where we went wrong. We were once so strong. Our love is like a song, you can't forget it. So now I guess, this is where we have to stand. Did you regret ever holding my hand? Never again, please don't forget, don't forget. We had it all, we were just about to fall. Even more in love than we were before. I won't forget, I won't forget about us. But a time where we went wrong, we were once so strong. Our love is like a song. You can't forget it. Somewhere we went wrong. We were once so strong. Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all. And at last, all the pictures have been burned. And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned. I won't forget, please don't forget us. Somewhere we went wrong. Our love is like a song. But you won't sing along. You've forgotten about us.
I feel like I have to keep all these parts roped off in their perspective places and no one ever just gets to see /me/. I'm hiding so much its getting hard to keep track of who knows what and have I already said that? I've been trying so hard to play nice with everyone I feel like I keep repeating; "If I'm being honest..." over and over but I'm not being honest at all. I have all these feelings and thoughts but no one to tell.
I've been wandering my house alone at night since Monday because nearly everyone but me is moved over to the new house. Just me and the dogs and other creatures of the night. Its so quiet, and no matter how loud I blast whatever music I like the silence is deafening. Its not like I miss them, my family, I miss the distraction more than anything. I think too much over here. I cry to much when I'm by myself. Its some kind of sick cycle I can't stop because secretly I like it too much.
Why do I feel like I'm self-destructing when nothing has changed? T-minus ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two....
ETA:
Did you forget? That I was even alive? Did you forget? Everything you ever had? Did you forget? Did you forget about me? Did you regret ever standing by my side? Did you forget what we were feeling inside? No one left to forget about us. But a time where we went wrong. We were once so strong. Our love is like a song, you can't forget it. So now I guess, this is where we have to stand. Did you regret ever holding my hand? Never again, please don't forget, don't forget. We had it all, we were just about to fall. Even more in love than we were before. I won't forget, I won't forget about us. But a time where we went wrong, we were once so strong. Our love is like a song. You can't forget it. Somewhere we went wrong. We were once so strong. Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all. And at last, all the pictures have been burned. And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned. I won't forget, please don't forget us. Somewhere we went wrong. Our love is like a song. But you won't sing along. You've forgotten about us.