Really at 11:45 at night?!
So after a day to myself, that I chose to do nothing with, Russ came home from skiing. He had a nice time and so did I though I was mostly bored. We chatted. We popped on WoW. Then his buddies came over for game night.
I stayed on WoW talking with Will and playing, then 11 or so rolls around time for bed. By the time we are settled its about 11:30. Then Russ turns to me to give me a kiss, grabs my hand and then out of no where says, "We really need to work on the wedding and I need to give YOU a little push to get things going."
I FUCKING LOST IT.
ME ME are you kidding? I can't do this all by myself. I started a webpage for our out of towners, yet when I show him, he says, "yeah that looks ok". Me whose going dress shopping next weekend. Me who works all day and him whose been randomly on and off work for 3 effing months wouldn't DARE lift a phone to maybe call a wedding commisionner or check into caterers.
Yes I have let things go by the way side. We are both under an extreme amount of stress. Its NOT fun planning a wedding while his mother is dying. Honestly, it takes the winds right out from under my sails when we visit. It's painful, its deppressing, its not exactly a condusive time for me to plan the 'happiest' day of my life when someone that is dearly love will be dying soon.
So he chooses to say this to me at 11:45 at night. OF COURSE I'm going to blow up. I grabbed my pillow and went to the guest bed. He came down to talk it through with me, but even now I'm still kind of pissed. Apparently what he MENT was that he needs a little push. He needs lists of things that need to be done so that he can help me get things done.
He didn't mean any harm by any of this, but it was just really REALLY bad timing. This whole weekend, I didn't dress, didn't shower, didn't do anything. That's a sign that I'm not up to my best. Then to have this happen. He's the last person I want to make me mad, or get upset at. He's hurting too. He begged me last night to try and have more patiences with him. He doesn't always say the right thing. I said I could do that, if he made the effort to slow down and think about what he's saying before he just blurts stuff like that out.
Neither of us are in the right or wrong here, but damn!
Sorry I just needed to vent.
I stayed on WoW talking with Will and playing, then 11 or so rolls around time for bed. By the time we are settled its about 11:30. Then Russ turns to me to give me a kiss, grabs my hand and then out of no where says, "We really need to work on the wedding and I need to give YOU a little push to get things going."
I FUCKING LOST IT.
ME ME are you kidding? I can't do this all by myself. I started a webpage for our out of towners, yet when I show him, he says, "yeah that looks ok". Me whose going dress shopping next weekend. Me who works all day and him whose been randomly on and off work for 3 effing months wouldn't DARE lift a phone to maybe call a wedding commisionner or check into caterers.
Yes I have let things go by the way side. We are both under an extreme amount of stress. Its NOT fun planning a wedding while his mother is dying. Honestly, it takes the winds right out from under my sails when we visit. It's painful, its deppressing, its not exactly a condusive time for me to plan the 'happiest' day of my life when someone that is dearly love will be dying soon.
So he chooses to say this to me at 11:45 at night. OF COURSE I'm going to blow up. I grabbed my pillow and went to the guest bed. He came down to talk it through with me, but even now I'm still kind of pissed. Apparently what he MENT was that he needs a little push. He needs lists of things that need to be done so that he can help me get things done.
He didn't mean any harm by any of this, but it was just really REALLY bad timing. This whole weekend, I didn't dress, didn't shower, didn't do anything. That's a sign that I'm not up to my best. Then to have this happen. He's the last person I want to make me mad, or get upset at. He's hurting too. He begged me last night to try and have more patiences with him. He doesn't always say the right thing. I said I could do that, if he made the effort to slow down and think about what he's saying before he just blurts stuff like that out.
Neither of us are in the right or wrong here, but damn!
Sorry I just needed to vent.