Wow
Can you believe that through out my life i've had like 4 girl friends... some of which wern't even for more than like a week.Some of you who are reading this might know where i'm going with it, but for those of you who don't know what i'm talking about, i'll tell you. one of my friends, who will remain unnamed, decided that it would be a good idea to go out with me for like 3 or 4 days and then break it off. Well i can't blame her, i'm not exactly the cool kid in the school, and i'm not in that great of a shape. The only thing is that, a few weeks after the break up, one of my good friends informed me that this girl liked me. So i figured what the hell, i'll go out with her i need to get over "unnamed" anyway, this might help me do that... Well it was abveously to early, i didn't even go out with her, i think i gave her like 2 hugs and that was it. I just still felt to much for my X... well i guess the "dateing situation" got to "unnamed," and she got the feeling that she was used when she had previously dated me. Well hearing about this from her web page didn't exactly creat the best aproach to the situation. In other words, i got mad. It's not everyday that you're bashed on the internet about some relationship that you were dumped on. It was just like someone riped out my heart and punched it through me head. I'm sure that's how she felt too, seeing that she would write something like that then deny that it was about me. I never could admit this before, but i really do still like her, even after she got mad at me for trying to get over her. Which i can fully understand, but when she doesn't even talk to me anymore. It hurts... and i don't think i will ever get over that fact that we went out... Even if it was for just a few days, i still feel really bad. And now that she's dateing someone else, i don't know what to do. I thought that if i asked her to prom as a friend it would change things between us, you know... show her that i don't need to be dateing her to have fun with her. But now that she has a boy friend i think things in my life won't be the same anymore in the "dateing department." i just have this really bad fear that i won't have a date for prom, just because of how i am when it comes to girls. i wish i could ask someone i like, to show them that. But the only person that i really like is "her..." Oh well maybe if i don't go to prom it won't be to bad... Oh who am i kidding, THIS SUCKS!