KimKierkegaard nails it
Our sufferings are so various, and of such long duration, but I wanted to give you guys a quick breakdown. Full details are on the web site.
And also:
I'm soooo excited to see you this weekend even though everything which occupies you interests me only slightly.
I've felt kind of sad for a couple of days now. I'm 100% sure it doesn't matter how much you accomplish, there will be days when you feel like a total fuckup whose achievements are meaningless and whose potential is laughable. Naturally these are NOT the days where you think "oh, well, everyone likes me anyway" or "at least I am smoking hot". No, they are the same days that you feel old and unlikeable, and you figure that people not answering your emails probably means they are Annoyed With You Forever. Also, all your plans for the future are bad.
This weekend brings the third of three acro workshops in a row, this one with visiting Dutch acrobat Niko. It should be less intense than either of the last two weekends, and is in Boston, but the prospect has been enough to keep me in self-preservation mode this week -- mostly light workouts and lots of recovery stuff. Being in one piece so that I can learn is the important thing. My brain in the meantime is still explodey with all the material we learned over the last two weekends, which I haven't had much time to practice. I know Scooper feels the same... one more influx and then the whole brat pack (are we a brat pack?) will have a chance to internalize things.
Pop bottles like you just won a championship game! Your despair will go virtually unnoticed in the world.
And also:
I'm soooo excited to see you this weekend even though everything which occupies you interests me only slightly.
I've felt kind of sad for a couple of days now. I'm 100% sure it doesn't matter how much you accomplish, there will be days when you feel like a total fuckup whose achievements are meaningless and whose potential is laughable. Naturally these are NOT the days where you think "oh, well, everyone likes me anyway" or "at least I am smoking hot". No, they are the same days that you feel old and unlikeable, and you figure that people not answering your emails probably means they are Annoyed With You Forever. Also, all your plans for the future are bad.
This weekend brings the third of three acro workshops in a row, this one with visiting Dutch acrobat Niko. It should be less intense than either of the last two weekends, and is in Boston, but the prospect has been enough to keep me in self-preservation mode this week -- mostly light workouts and lots of recovery stuff. Being in one piece so that I can learn is the important thing. My brain in the meantime is still explodey with all the material we learned over the last two weekends, which I haven't had much time to practice. I know Scooper feels the same... one more influx and then the whole brat pack (are we a brat pack?) will have a chance to internalize things.
Pop bottles like you just won a championship game! Your despair will go virtually unnoticed in the world.