anxiety strikes again...
I’m more than a little anxious today. History department faculty/graduate party yesterday left me reminded of my social awkwardness. Great. So many writing deadlines, and one I missed, which also meant missing helping a friend. Big changes on the horizon and until a plan gets settled, I’m adrift in what-ifs. I need to start my PhD applications and I’m so worried about it that I’m procrastinating and finding “more important” things to do first. AGH. Conferences on 3 out of 4 of the next weekends - one I present at and will be meeting a professor that I'd like to work on my PhD with in England. That’s a lot of socializing and being away from the safety of home for me. So many small anxieties stuck to me like a Katamari ball. Days like today I feel like I should retreat from the world and only pursue a life of simple pleasures. Ha!