Sep 12, 2005 16:38
wow... i didn't do very much but i feel like i've done more than i should have! when i was at uni this morning, one of my friends commented that i looked like death warmed up. haha thanks... i think?
i guess it all started on thursday. i'm at work on thursdays (as a health officer in serpentine) and i was out of the office doing some site visits, and for one of these i had to go to a resident's house and ask them a few questions. simple questions.
i was there for all of 5 minutes talking to this elderly lady who was very nice, and helpful, when her husband came striding out from wherever it was he was hiding and proceeded to complain/whinge/bitch/moan loudly at me rather than to me about god knows what. i could barely undestand what he was saying due to his thick accent! then to make things worse, his dog ran up and started barking its head off. it was a fat old blue heeler thing, and had a striking resemblance to its owner - old fat ugly and loud. so between the dog and the man i was getting a migraine very very quickly.
that night my partner D was coming over to watch a movie and stay over, as my parents had gone to the Barossa Valley for the week. he eventually reached my place, and looked like i felt: utterly knackered. so we watched the movie - strange days, which by the way was quite good! and then we very nearly passed out, but in separate beds! of course this was a slight shock to me, as i'm used to us sleeping together even if we don't actually 'sleep' all that much ;-)
one thing about me is that whenever i'm in a relationship i start to freak out, or get all stressed about how things are going with the relationship at certain points - 1 month mark, 6 weeks, and 3 months. my relationship history shows that most break ups occur around these points. so naturally i started to get too perceptive for my own good with the situation with D, and this whole w/e i was worried about whether we're going alright or whats happened to change it.
on saturday i had a pretty good chat with him, and worked out that he's happy with me, and with us, its just that he has lots of things on his mind right now, he works a helluva lot, and usually when he gets home all he wants is a hot meal and sleep. immediately i'm thinking 'god you're such a typical male.. but i still love ya'
then on top of everything i had a tonne of homework to do for uni, and i just was not in the mood to be creative and write assignments and do pretty presentations. haha if anyone had asked me for the time of day i probably would've told 'em to get nicked :-)
i feel better today, probly cos i skipped most of uni :-) but yeh one of my friends gave me some advice and said " look... you're worrying about nothing. D's just stressed with other stuff, and he works a really full on job. he still loves you even if he doesn't show it all the time! so get over yourself and stop worrying about nothing or i will slap you."