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During this time when I am dealing with an injured heart, I've somehow managed to break several others along the way. Why is it that I always go after the one guy who isn't looking for the same thing as me and push aside the ones who want to give me the world? What posses me to be so cruel? Why am I so afraid of being with someone who treats me like a queen? Why do I want to be able to tell how my heart feels, but freak out when others do the same to me? Seriously, why am I so fucked up?
Life is dull and boring. The future looks empty and dreary, and every part of my body hurts. I miss the days when I had something that kept me happy, and I can't wait till I find that joy again. I love waking up thinking that life is beautiful and having the energy to deal with everything. I hope that I can find that joy in myself and not have to rely on people or medications to make me happy. I hope I can put God back at the center of my life to keep everything in balance. I hope I quit feeling so lost and alone, and start to see the beauty again, because I know its out there waiting for me.
Life is dull and boring. The future looks empty and dreary, and every part of my body hurts. I miss the days when I had something that kept me happy, and I can't wait till I find that joy again. I love waking up thinking that life is beautiful and having the energy to deal with everything. I hope that I can find that joy in myself and not have to rely on people or medications to make me happy. I hope I can put God back at the center of my life to keep everything in balance. I hope I quit feeling so lost and alone, and start to see the beauty again, because I know its out there waiting for me.