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Augh!!!! I'm so fucking pissed. Just once I would like to be with a guy who treats me right. Just once. Dave of course being a great boyfriend calls me up at 3am on Friday night after not calling me all day and not letting me know whether or not he has plans to show up at my door. By this time I'm upstairs in bed. He asks me where I am so I tell him and of course the first question out of his mouth is "who's up there with you?" Of course no one is up there with me but apparently theres a car parked in front of my house which obviously means I have someone over...cause you know, none of my neighbours own cars or anything. He then tells me that he was downstairs knocking on my door and asks why I didn't answer so I tell him that I'm all the way on the 3rd floor so how the hell does he expect me to hear the door? I ask him to come back since I really didn't want to spend the night alone in my house since I'm the only one here right now and he says that he's already downtown. Why the hell wouldn't he at least make the effort of calling me on a payphone in st james. Oh and when I look at the number he phoned me from the next morning....it's a st.james number so I don;t know what to think of that. Anyways...he says he'll leave for my place in 30 minutes but he wants to drink with his friend first. I told him that I had to work at 9am and I was not about to sit up and wait for him to get there all night long. I asked him to come right away because I know that if he goes to have a drink he'll forget all about me. He said he would call me when he was in st.james but of course that call never came. On my way to work yesterday morning I give the number he called me from a call so I could try and get a hold of him since he still has no way of me getting a hold of him (suspicious...I think so). The number wasn't even in service anymore??? What the hell? How is a number in service not even 5 hrs before that but not in service later that morning? He of course didn't call me at all yesterday but I ran into his friend at Empire last night and he mentioned something about Dave being there. I couldn;t find him in the crowd but I want to know how the hell he can even afford to go out when he has no job and can't even afford to take me out? Oh that's right....it's because I pay when we do go out. I haven't heard from him at all today and it's 12:41 am so I doubt I'll be hearing from him tonight. I am so sick of this shit and seriously...if he can't even be bothered to pick up the phone after standing me up to at least apologize and explain himself, let alone not make me wait 2 days or more for a phone call then I don;t want to be with him. I don't need this and I'm so sick and tired of him taking me for granted and using me and making me feel like I don;'t matter to him. I do so much for him but when it comes time for him to do something for me he can never pull through for me. I'm so angry I feel like crying but I'm too tired and I'm too sick of this to even come close to crying. I have a bag of his shit right now and he's not getting it back until he pays me back the money that I loaned him so he could fill his car up with gas which he said he would pay me on Tuesday but then suddenely changed his story and told me he said thursday when I asked him for the money. Fuck him...fuck his empty promises and his false apologies. Fuck everything about him. Augh! Like seriously....I'm soooo close to just throwing all of his shit out on my front lawn. I know I should end this....I have no idea if I'll be able to when the time comes around but fuck if he can't turn his shit around and start treating me like we're both in this relationship instead of just him then it'll be very easy for me.