blind sided by a woman
I was in Lancaster this past weekend for my roommates Graduation Party, so I was hanging out with the ex-Melissa the whole time. We got along great, and the awkwardness of hanging out with her and her new boyfriend was minimal. Last night she pulled me aside to talk about our relationship, if I thought our breakup was a mistake, how I feel about her now, etc. We talked for about 30 minutes before people started interrupting us. It was a very honest and open conversation, filled with feelings of dread on her part about the thought of breaking up with her boyfriend and moving out if we did get back together. We both still have feelings for eachother, and I'm open to the idea of getting back together with her. The situation is going to be very difficult to overcome, and the relationship would automatically have a lot of pressure put on it. I haven't heard from her today, and I'm waiting on a reply to my email. I have a thousand thoughts and questions racing through my head, and I'm pretty stressed out by it. I'm both excited and terrified at the prospect of this relationship. It is going to be a long day today flying back Colorado without knowing whats going through her head.
Sigh, I need to talk to my mommy.
Sigh, I need to talk to my mommy.